This Much I Know . . .

Where do I start about today?  Well, I have a card and a long, long post.  For those of you who have implored me to give an update on what’s going on in my life – well, today’s that day – a sad milestone.   For those of you not so much interested in the blah, blah, blah – a card first and then hugs to get you started on your day.  This is a sneak peek of sorts . . . this month there have been lots of hops and such challenges and advertisements about breast cancer – it could not have come during a worst month for me.  I know it’s not about me, but I was finding myself on the floor when trying to rise to these occasions – cancer is insidious and long after it is gone it leaves indelible marks of abuse on the families of the survivors.  More healing, but where you least suspect.  Today is the last day of the month and although I had a commitment to another team on the day the Our Daily Bread Designs released their Praying for a Cure set, I had a whisper of encouragement that made me lay down what I was working on, and pick up this set.  It’s full of cast offs and scraps and doesn’t look pink like the other cards, but it still zooms right to the heart of the matter, which is a cure.  Earlier this month many of my cards have used Spellbinders™ 2011 Heirloom Ornament and I had given thought to making the ornament from a doily.  When I cut the doily out, it left a pair of angel wings that have graced my desk for the last two weeks.   Over the weeks I’ve looked at the wings from every angle, do they look like wings?  No, it’s just me – people will think I’m crazy.  Today sweet friends, go with me . . . they are wings :-)

Here’s the visual on what I’m calling wings :-)

StampsOur Daily Bread Designs – Praying for a Cure
Paper: Memory Box, Bazzill
Ink: Versafine Onyx Black
Accessories: Spellbinders™ 2011 Heirloom Ornament, Spellbinders™ Labels Twenty Three, Spellbinders™ Ironworks Motifs, Bazzill Button, 6″ Heart Doily, Satin Ribbon, Lace, Recollections Pearls, Spare Parts – Buckle

A year has gone by since John passed away and so many of you have been so sweet and have sent emails to check on me.  I’ve been very quiet about how things are going opting instead to post as I could and just plod on – I’m pretty good at appearing to be cheerful.  I’m touched that you asked and I think I was reluctant to respond because it has been such a roller coaster; one day the wind is at my back and the next it feels like I’m walking through mud.  I am the eternal optimist though and I know that even though there are still some rough patches, there are blue skies ahead.  I’ve been here . . .  captive in my own little world, for better or worst, ups and downs; I know in my heart that God has a plan for me.  I’m patient and still sorting things out but in the mean time, this much I know….

I cry a lot.  I don’t subject other people to it but I’m not embarrassed by it either.   It’s just the healthy signs of putting to bed a rich marriage filled to the brim with unconditional love and the memories of a phenomenal man.  Love doesn’t die . . . this much I know.

The world doesn’t stand still while you grieve . . . in fact people move on very quickly and leave it to you to catch up — or not.   It’s uncomfortable for many to deal with someone who is grieving, so they don’t.   I’m used to that – it’s just like the awkward absence of people who don’t know what to say when the cancer cloud hangs over you.   Thankfully my best friend  — you know her as Kelly V. – – must have been what Webster was looking at when they wrote the definition of friend.  Bless her, that girl grounds me . . . this much I know.

You gotta walk before you run.  Last November I threw myself into blogging like there was no tomorrow and being busy seemed to be the answer.  I lost myself in making cards and hung on every sweet word you all sent back to me — still do.  The only difference is that now I’ve let go of the handle bars a little bit and put a little balance back into my life.  It seems like two steps forward, one step back but I honestly feel like I’m coming out of the fog.  I’m a slow as molasses, but I’ll get there . . . this much I know.

Thank you so much for showering me with your well wishes and prayers.   I welcome them as long as you feel like giving them.  They help me so much, especially on days like today.  I {heart} my readers – I recognize so many of the names that visit every day.  You lift me up . . .  this I much know.

  • MargieHOctober 31, 2011 - 7:48 am

    Becca, I was thinking about you last night knowing this would be a milestone day for you. I wish I can reach over and hold your hand, sweet friend. Know that many people are hugging you today – you are not alone!! May the wonderful loving memories keep you steady today and everyday. I will always be here for you – love to you!! xoReplyCancel

  • Ruthie BurkeyOctober 31, 2011 - 7:56 am


    My heart goes out to you and my prayers go up for you today!ReplyCancel

  • GlendaOctober 31, 2011 - 8:03 am

    Becca, I don’t often leave a comment, but visit every day! Just so you know…..I think of you daily and you are in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong my sweet!ReplyCancel

  • krenOctober 31, 2011 - 8:09 am

    I have thought of you often as I checked your blog. Sad anniversaries are so hard. You are strong, capable, and deserve all the good things life can offer. Your handle bar image is a good one. We should all be as loving and brave as you are. Your life is an inspiration and your creative talents as well. kkReplyCancel

  • Lillian ChildOctober 31, 2011 - 8:13 am

    This is SO very lovely!ReplyCancel

  • CecOctober 31, 2011 - 8:15 am

    This card is stunning and I definitely see wings – beautiful uplifting wings. My thoughts are with you as you go through this process but know that that old cliche is so true – time is a great healer. The ones that we have loved are never lost to us, they just move into a more special place in our hearts.

  • Amy JohnsonOctober 31, 2011 - 8:16 am

    Such a beautiful card. I recognized the angel’s wings immediately and thought it was so inspirational and creative. And I thought ‘how could she have thought of that? She’s amazing!’. Then I read about them sitting on your desk, leftover from a previous project, and I knew those wings were a comforting sign for you from God. Beautiful post. So honestly well-written. Thank you for sharing.ReplyCancel

  • Barbara BruderOctober 31, 2011 - 8:17 am

    Becca, We are all here for you. The silent friends and the ones who comment a lot. We are the friends from far and wide and we are all saying prayers and have been giving you hugs. Stay strong and know that He will sustain you and you are not alone.ReplyCancel

  • chaunOctober 31, 2011 - 8:17 am

    May you feel God’s arms around you each minute of each and every day.ReplyCancel

  • RobbieOctober 31, 2011 - 8:18 am

    You probably are not aware of the many that “visit” you daily because they don’t leave comments…me, for one…but I think of you often and visit you EVERY day. Take care, my friend, and continue to find your healing in the One Who created you!!ReplyCancel

  • Melissa BOctober 31, 2011 - 8:19 am

    I think of you often, and keep you in my prayers. I’m glad you’ve accepted how some people react, I’ve experienced it from the cancer end. You are blessed to have so many good memories.ReplyCancel

  • Dottie DavisOctober 31, 2011 - 8:19 am

    My heart is with you as well as my prayers to God who heals deeply and perfectly. He knows what He is doing which is part of the struggle we have in enduring trials; the battle of the flesh with its doubt and agony. Thank God for our Jesus who holds us up in times we can’t see or feel it. The walk of faith does protect us during those blazing storms! Imagine how life would be without our Lord steering the ship!

    I visit your blog nearly every day being greatly inspired by your work. Sometimes I just stand amazed that someone could really come up with the creative cards that you do. Many of my cards are takeoffs of yours as I learn a lot from your examples.ReplyCancel

  • lynnOctober 31, 2011 - 8:21 am

    Dear Becca

    “There are things we don’t want to happen but have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn and people we can’t live without but have to let go”. How true these words, don’t you think. I, too, lost the love of my life (we actually were together since 3rd and 4th grades and married 34 years when he suddenly died on Christmas Eve). You are right where you need to be…this is your journey and there is no right or wrong direction for you to take. Crafting cards for the people I care about is also my way of losing myself for a bit of time. Soon it will be the seven year anniversary of the day my life changed for ever…it doesn’t get better but it does get different. Perhaps Gretchen Kemp said it best. ” There’s a place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger and your
    whispers softly echo. It’s a place where a part of you will forever be a
    part of me”. Be kind to yourself today and every day.ReplyCancel

  • Jindra SturgillOctober 31, 2011 - 8:21 am

    Dearest one, I wonder if you have any idea how healing the beauty of your artistry is for many of us. As you continue down this bumpy road of life, I pray that you feel His arms about you at all times, not just during the times of discomfort. You are such a beacon of His light. Thank you for all you do and all that you share.
    Jindra SturgillReplyCancel

  • SharonOctober 31, 2011 - 8:24 am

    Becca, you are an inspiration and I wish you the best in everything you do. Your blog is so aptly named, as you display such amazing grace and I feel blessed to have found your site. I can only imagine how great your loss is but trust that you will find your way through it. Stay strong, girl!ReplyCancel

  • Ursula UphofOctober 31, 2011 - 8:26 am

    Becca, I haven’t been part of your blog for a very long time, but the last few weeks have visited often. I have only just found out about your sad loss, and can only say that you will gain strength from those that love you. I will remember you along with some other special friends in my prayers for today. Take careReplyCancel

  • RubyOctober 31, 2011 - 8:30 am

    I am so glad to hear you are doing better… and I know this blog was very difficult for you to write. I don’t know you personally, but through this posting I can feel your pain and I pray that you feel more and more peace as the days goes by. Thank you for all the wonderful work you do to give us a daily smile I just wish I could do the same for you.ReplyCancel

  • AnnOctober 31, 2011 - 8:31 am

    There are never any words that someone can say to those who are grieving, I know the Footprints poem is a bit over-used but I do think that over the last year in your life there has truly only been one set of prints-Jesus is carrying you. I hope that you can feel His arms around you daily.ReplyCancel

  • Petronella SabolOctober 31, 2011 - 8:32 am

    It is hard to know what to say, only because I don’t want to be insensitive.
    I know this, reading your blog and seeing the comments people leave you, you are a very brave and caring woman.
    I wish you peace and strength.ReplyCancel

  • SheilaOctober 31, 2011 - 8:32 am

    Your loss is our gain. I can’t imagine the pain you have. I lost both my parents and my brother in a very short period two years ago and still have days where the tears show up unbidden. I only wish that I had your talent to share with others. Then maybe I would know why I’m on this earth still. Be good to your self and know that the joy your art brings to so many each time you post is probably your purpose her for now.ReplyCancel

  • ChrisOctober 31, 2011 - 8:32 am

    Thank you for your sharing, I visit you most days and always seem to leave with something from you, inspirtation a quote or a little comfort.
    Never Change BeccaReplyCancel

  • mamajulieOctober 31, 2011 - 8:33 am

    Thinking of you today and most days and admiring the beautiful art you share with us. Walking alone is hard when you’ve walked as part of a team. There is no magic answer, no quick cure, just growing steadily each day. Just as you found a way to get the bookcase where it belonged (lol) you will find a way to get through this. Little things will still ambush you long after the big things are done. Quick memories out of left field will still strafe you and leave you helpless for a moment, but you are a survivor and will move on. Praying for God to hold you in the palm of his hand today.ReplyCancel

  • MichelleOctober 31, 2011 - 8:34 am

    These kinds of anniversaries are the most difficult, this, my family is quickly learning. Please know your are in my prayers and also how much of an inspiration you are to so many. Hugs…

    PS. I see the wings, your card is beautiful. :)ReplyCancel

  • CarolynOctober 31, 2011 - 8:35 am

    Becca — I’m another one of the silent ones. Although I visit your blog regularly, I never leave comments. It’s been over six years since I lost my husband to cancer. This much I know … praise God for loving family and friends. Although death is final, love is everlasting. Although it is difficult to put one foot in front of the other some days, God will carry you, Time is your friend. This much I know … you are a blessing to many throughout the world. Thank you for sharing your God-given talent with us. You are loved.ReplyCancel

  • Rose LaQuayOctober 31, 2011 - 8:35 am

    Becca, My thoughts are with you. I visit each time you post and always look forward to your posts with great anticipation as I know you will share an outstanding project or what’s on your heart. Both are beautiful and it makes my day when I can “spend a little time with Becca”. You lift my spirits and God will richly bless you for blessing so many others.ReplyCancel

  • SusanOctober 31, 2011 - 8:38 am

    Becca, I have looked at your beautiful cards so often for the past number of months, knowing nothing of the death of your husband. My heart is so saddened by your loss and wonder where you get strength for all of your beautiful creations. You are certainly an inspiration to all of us who have suffered great losses recently. God bless you, Becca. Love and prayers.ReplyCancel

  • Sandy MOctober 31, 2011 - 8:39 am

    Becca, I am one of your many admirers who read your every post but seldom comment. You are in my thoughts and prayers every day. I know you have a hard road ahead and hopefully it will get less bumpy. God is with you every step of the way. Imagine how hard it would be were He not with you. Cry if you must. It hurts no one and helps the healing. Just remember we are all here if you need us.
    Your cards a so beautiful, each and every one of them. You have a great talent. I don’t know about the others but I am in awe of the magic you do with paper and glue. Today’s wing card is proof of that.

  • Laura (sandytoz)October 31, 2011 - 8:40 am

    <3 Psalm 34:18ReplyCancel

  • crystalOctober 31, 2011 - 8:43 am

    Becca, I am sorry that I do not leave comments very often. I moved from Canada to the US a few months ago and it has been a busy time for me. I also just started a card ministry at my new church. I do however come often to see your beautiful new creations. I think of you often and I will continue to keep you in prayer. Thanks for sharing your heart with us today. I saw the wings on your card before you explained what they were. I’m sure your John is very proud of you. xoxoReplyCancel

  • MelindaOctober 31, 2011 - 8:45 am

    Hugs Becca……lots of hugs.ReplyCancel

  • Gloria WestermanOctober 31, 2011 - 8:45 am

    This is so good to hear!!! We (I) have felt the need to be here as good friends do….to lift you up when you need it….we all walk thru part of lives that we think we are running thru and then the hard times hit and we crawl through them…..lift your wings sweetee and fly…………fly where your wings carry you…..for Jesus is with you ….just as we are…..we love you and admire you….through your spirit and through your creations…..
    Yes they are wings….LOVE IT……..ReplyCancel

  • TammyOctober 31, 2011 - 8:48 am

    I saw the angel wings before even reading your post. May God continue to bless you as you continue to walk your path of grief.ReplyCancel

  • Pam BlairOctober 31, 2011 - 8:48 am

    Hi Becca, please know your never alone, our Dear Heavenly Father and John are spiritually with you every day, along with all your Daily Bread blog friends. This December 15th will be five years since my beloved husband Armand passed away with whom I also shared a phenomenal like and like you I cry out over the tremendous loss I’ve experienced in my life.

    I’ve prayed a lot these past five years, for comfort, peace and ask God many times to help me find a new purpose and reason for my life. When God finally spoke to my heart, I listened and just last year I graduated from schooling to be an activity director for either skilled nursing or an assisted living facility. This past two weeks my prayers were answered again by God, my application for National Certification as an Activity Director was approved and I know my husband Armand was looking down on me as my guardian angel, so very proud of this achievement in my life.
    Unfortunately at this time I’m dealing with some health issues of my own and am unable to work, but hope in the near future to brighten the lives of the elderly who live in facilities.

    In time Becca, God will provide you with a purpose for your life. In ways I think he already has, you have this incredible creative talent for creating beautiful handmade cards and please know you bless each and everyone of us everyday with your creative knowledge.

    I always love, love, love coming to your website and seeing all your beautiful, creative, sensational project ideas Becca. Please know how much you have inspired me, your website is such a blessing to all of us.

    I can totally relate to your feelings Becca. It’s really difficult facing the world everyday when your experiencing grieve and pain after losing someone so significantly dear and special in your life. The Anniversary Dates are definitely the hardest to get thru,

    God feels your hurt Becca so in times of need know he is always there, catching your teardrops as they fall. Friends like Kelly V are often the answer to our prayers, they can help ease your pain and often ground you with their love and support. Just know all of us love you and feel blessed that you are a special part of our lives. Comforting hugs and much love Becca, PamReplyCancel

  • Judy I, St. Louis MOOctober 31, 2011 - 8:49 am

    Your card is beautiful. I knew immediately they were angel wings. What a lovely angel of hope you have created with the support ribbon. I admire your talent greatly and thank you for sharing it amidst your pain and grief. Those that have not experienced this kind of grief don’t know what to say, but please know you are in my thoughts and the thoughts of all who follow your blog. We love you. I hope you know that from reading all the comments.ReplyCancel

  • Angella CrockettOctober 31, 2011 - 8:52 am

    My dear Becca, I think of you often and pray for continued healing of your broken heart! I try to stay mindful of those who continue to grieve even though my life continues to go on as normal. Life is something that we should not take for granted. I do admire you for your strength, but also for your transparency while admitting that some days you are not okay. Prayers continue for you and for your family….

    P.S. The angel wings were a perfect ‘Happy Accident’ …..I am deeply moved by your card and what it means.

    Love and hugs,

  • VickieOctober 31, 2011 - 8:53 am

    Becca, thank you for this beautifully worded letter you have written to your readers. You won’t recognize me as a frequent commenter, but I check your blog daily, and I care about you. I lost an adult daughter early this year and I know and feel exactly what you’ve written because you put it so well, and in words I could not find. Your pain touches my heart, and your hope comforts me. Thank you for this and for each day that you post with love. I ? you, too.ReplyCancel

  • CherylOctober 31, 2011 - 8:54 am

    Caught up in the demands of everyday life (I need to get to work) I don’t leave a lot of comments, but please know I am pulling for you. I think you are doing wonderful, and yes, grieving will take time and doesn’t come without tears. The angel wings are perfect, one of those things that just make you wonder! Thanks for sharing your talents with us, and also your thoughts.ReplyCancel

  • VickieOctober 31, 2011 - 8:54 am

    That little ? at the end of my post above is supposed to be a {heart}. :)ReplyCancel

  • HoneyOctober 31, 2011 - 8:55 am

    Oh, Becca thank you sharing today. I am pretty new to this and have only followed you for about 3 months. You are so beautiful, cheerful, hopeful that I never guess that you were living through a tragedy. I will surely add you to my daily prayers. I never knew that such beauty could come from such sadness-God is carrying you. It is so inspiring. Honey ScottReplyCancel

  • Jane FiresOctober 31, 2011 - 8:56 am

    Becca, Thanks for sharing your heart. It is hard and at times seems almost impossible to go on but we can with the Lord’s help and strength. We all are praying for you at this time of year. Love you and thanks for sharing with us. Those wings look just like angel wings.
    Angel Hugs,

  • Edna BurgessOctober 31, 2011 - 8:56 am

    Hi Becca, I think of you often and mourn your loss also. It has to be hard. I haven’t lost a husband or a child, thank the lord, but when I lost my dear Mother it took me so long to come to grips with it. Thankfully I wasn’t working then and had a granddaughter to take care of 12 hours a day. She saved me. Glad you have your best friend and your card making. Hang in there. God Bless. edna And YES, your card does look like Angel wings. Love it.ReplyCancel

  • PatOctober 31, 2011 - 8:57 am

    Becca I visit everyday but I am one of those who does not comment very often May God help you through this very sad day and every day to come

    I too saw the wings He does speak in mysterious waysReplyCancel

  • EileenOctober 31, 2011 - 8:57 am

    Yes Becca…..they are wings, and beautiful wings they are! I am sending you hugs and love today and peaceful thoughts!

    LOL EileenReplyCancel

  • Lori ReinholzOctober 31, 2011 - 9:00 am

    Oh Becca….I just had to respond to this! First I must say I must say how sorry I am for the loss of your husband and your grief!

    You have written this so well and I felt like you have written my own story, but with a twist. My loss has been myself. I did just the opposite and stopped stamping and making cards for over a year. Did not even check e-mails or blog. My issue is not cancer….going from a hearing person to almost completely deaf, coronary artery disease and Epilepsy. I buried myself into on-line games, which in a way saved my sanity, while waiting almost 6 years to get disability!

    I (like you) cried a lot and prayed a lot. Finally last month on the final round a judge took one look at me & approved me with in 10 minutes! There is a lot more to this story, but I won’t bore you with that.

    I just had to tell you that I feel like we are Kindred Spirits. I could not have written this so well. Dear friend, I will keep you in my prayers for the good lord Jesus to hold you in his arms and love you through your turmoil!

    Hugs LoriReplyCancel

  • DebbieOctober 31, 2011 - 9:01 am

    Bless your heart Becca…I love your blog (yes, they definitely look like wings to me) and read it every day, I just tend to be a quiet reader, not a poster. It takes awhile to find a new normal but it sounds like you are well on your way.


  • lois skiathitisOctober 31, 2011 - 9:01 am

    They do look like wings, and I love the sentiment. Your card is gorgeous Becca, The embellishing you have done is amazing. Now about crying there is nothing wrong with that. We all grieve in different ways. This past June I lost my son 3 years ago and some days I’m fine and other days the darkness is unbearable. The sadness and the emptiness just won’t go away. I talk to him at night right after I thank the Lord for all of my blessings. The world still goes on and rightfully so, I may catch up, but if I don’t that’s okay too. One thing to remember Becca, and this has helped me, the world might go on and at times in a fast pace, even tho I can’t or won’t catch up and while I might look to others that I seem lost I’m lost in the sweet memories that my child has left behind, that no one can take from me. I will continue to pray for you and always remember that God is always there and he always listens even in our darkest moments. We love you Becca and that you can rely. As always Becca, TFS!!! :-DReplyCancel

  • Ellen - CardmonkeyOctober 31, 2011 - 9:05 am

    Dearest Becca: Your posts are always so uplifting that it’s hard to imagine that you’ve had such a struggle. The beauty of your messages and of course your cards are a God-given blessing. Thank you so much for sharing them over the past year especially. Each of our trials — eventually — seems to make us stronger … know that we are here to carry you when the going gets rough. Your John is in my prayers today, as I know he is in yours every day, throughout the day. He is with you in love, waiting.

    Ellen ? CardMonkey

  • bethann dOctober 31, 2011 - 9:05 am

    they are beautiful wings, and i think they were shown to you at just the time you needed them. the ones we love are not truely lost, we will see and be with them again thru the grace of Our Lord. time helps us process the loss but does not heal, keeping busy is the bodys way of protecting the mind or vice versa, people can only give what they have to give, some much some little, it does not mean they care less, or think of you less, this I know.
    it is a beautiful card, i love blue and i love the little angel made of wings, ribbon and love. thinking of you and holding you in prayerReplyCancel

  • Sheila-UKOctober 31, 2011 - 9:07 am

    Hi Becca,
    Oh they are definitely wings…such a beautiful card too. Have emailed you,
    and you are in my thoughts and prayers.
    God bless you.

    Love Sheila xxReplyCancel

  • MarleneOctober 31, 2011 - 9:08 am

    Wow, Becca. I stand in awe of you!! You are such an encourager, even through your own pain. God has given u such a wonderful & beautiful talent & u use it to beautify all of our lives that u touch here on your blog. Thank u for sharing! I will hold u up in prayer today & I know that the Lord is standing by & with you.
    Your card is so lovely & yes, I certainly do see those angel wings!! I pray u have a peaceful & good day.ReplyCancel

  • Kellie FortinOctober 31, 2011 - 9:08 am

    Becca – your post is so elegantly written. I cried with you today my dear friend. It took incredible courage today for you to let your readers feel and see your loss. But I know that it will be healing for you and all those who read your blog daily. You are truly an inspiration …not just for your incredibly beautiful cards but for the beautiful person you are!! I am so happy that you are on the part of your journey where you can begin to see blue skies again! I know that John is with you everyday and today he is defintely smiling standing over your shoulder!! Big cyber hugs and a few tears for you today my dear friend!!ReplyCancel

  • MilliejsOctober 31, 2011 - 9:09 am

    Becca, I knew they were wings the minute I saw them. In fact, I have a SIl who has been struggling with brain cancer for the last 2 years. I want to send a card like this to her. Thank you for your faithfulness. God loves you….this much I know.ReplyCancel

  • DOTTIE MCFADDENOctober 31, 2011 - 9:11 am

    Dear Sweet Wonderful Becca,
    I just lost my sister-in-law of 39 years to breast cancer that metastasized to her lungs and took her away from us. She was a wonderful and loving person and more like a sister to me than an in-law. I sympathize with you and understand your pain. My solace is knowing that she is at peace now and with her Maker. I will always love and miss her. I pray that your pain and mine will lessen with time but we will never ever forget our loved ones.ReplyCancel

  • Sharon FieldOctober 31, 2011 - 9:16 am

    Yes, Becca they ARE wings………..and YOU are a very wise (and talented) woman (of GOD),,,,,,,,,,,,,,,This much I know) God bless…….:)ReplyCancel

  • charleneOctober 31, 2011 - 9:22 am

    Prayers and loving thought to you today! Gods grace is more then enough! rest in His love and Peace!ReplyCancel

  • MickieOctober 31, 2011 - 9:23 am

    God Bless you Becca! I lost my husband Bruce a week ago and I will save a copy of this post to read when I am down. He was my best friend and I feel so lost without him. Thanks the dear Lord for family and good freinds, they have kept me occupied. Thanks for this beautiful post and I love all your cards.ReplyCancel

  • Nancy MashburnOctober 31, 2011 - 9:24 am

    Our lives are full of anniversaries – some wonderfully happy and others incredibly sad but even those sad anniversaries can be lightened by the joy found in love shared with a mate, friendship of caring people and just the joy of life. I can only imagine the grief of having a lifetime mate pass on and I am so thankful for people who share that loss hurts but that there is hope in the future. While I know that you would rather have John than be an inspiration through his death, you are truly that and I am so thankful for your honesty and willingness to share. This I know – God loves you and wraps His arms around you to comfort you not with His arms alone – He also uses those who love and care for you. BlessingsReplyCancel

  • Jackie W.October 31, 2011 - 9:25 am

    Rest assured Becca, they so look like wings! And wings are what will get you through the days ahead. Wings lift you up over the fog-we all have our guardian angel. We don’t know who, but HE does. It might be one of our family members, a best friend, our blog contacts, or whomever our Lord places in our lives to help us through our days. Know you are loved, and not only by your family. Your creations ALWAYS lift me up and make my day brighter. I don’t often post a comment, but know I check you out every day. You are truly amazing. Thank you for your inspiration, and I don’t mean with your creativity, although that is a part of it:-). Stay focused, keep in touch, and most of all, lean on our precious Lord and Savior and the ‘angels’ he places among us. Peace be with you.ReplyCancel

  • Evette K. CiampoOctober 31, 2011 - 9:25 am

    God bless u Becca. You are an inspiration to others whether you believe that or not. I know your hubby is smiling down on you with great love. I know how it feels to be ignored or not looked at, when I had uterine cancer last year I spend many days crying while people I knew did not contact me. It was sad. Thank goodness my friend Barb was there to help me so much. God bless her. She lost a son age 23 four years ago. She knows how people can be. I just had to tell you how much you are loved and how much we all look forward to your blog each day. Stay strong when you can and at others times just cry. You will reach a good place soon. love, evetteReplyCancel

  • Monica LoreOctober 31, 2011 - 9:29 am

    My heart goes out to you Becca – I read your blog everyday, and you have inspired me on many occasions. I have come to know the hard way (lost my first child, my best buddy and my beloved in-laws within 8 years) that your grieving is a very natural thing. Doesn’t make it any easier, I know.

    I thank you so much for the sharing of your art and your life.ReplyCancel

  • deb RobinsonOctober 31, 2011 - 9:30 am

    I think often of you, praying your strength. I know for sure it’s not easy losing the one you love more than yourself, however be encouraged, there is a brighter day ahead. Weeping endures only for a night and joy will come in the morning. No more tears, no more sorrow. When that day comes, you will only remember the good days you had with smiles and laughter knowing that one day you two will be together again.ReplyCancel

  • DeniceOctober 31, 2011 - 9:31 am

    You don’t know me, but I know you. You are the friend I visit everyday…. You are someone I pray for…. You are the wings that lift me up….. You make me smile…… You make me cry…… You inspire me to do better…… You remind me to never take the love of my family and friends for granted….. I feel your pain even when you do not show it….and I know I will see you and John someday. All my love and may God bless you and your family……….. DeniceReplyCancel

  • DebraKOctober 31, 2011 - 9:32 am

    ‘…the world doesn’t stand still’, that is so true, your words are beautiful, and you are blessed not only with your intense talent, but also that you had such a warm and loving union for so many years. Keep family and friends close today, and remember the many special times shared…hugsReplyCancel

  • jean w.October 31, 2011 - 9:34 am

    Ah Becca I love you! Thanks for your transparency! I appreciate your every post and read you always…and yes I saw the wings too!ReplyCancel

  • Bette SOctober 31, 2011 - 9:35 am

    My thoughts and prayers are with you, Becca. Losing someone special is never easy, but I think that is why God gave us memories. Beautiful, loving memories that no one or no thing can take away. Hold on to those memories and John will always be with you. God also gave you so much talent and you are gracious to share that talent with us. Thank you and bless you. I love your card and yes, I see the angel wings. You are amazing.ReplyCancel

  • KathOctober 31, 2011 - 9:35 am

    Sweet loving and giving Becca, my heart is filled with so much love for you… I do npt have words… That is not a gift that God gave me.. He did give me the gift of empathy and I really feel for you.. Here you inspire thousands of women and are never proud or boastful.. When I share your site to others I always say that “she is a strong Christian woman that is a recent widow that shares her faith with others when she is silently hurting inside.” So know others are here in spirit helping you with their silent prayers…. I feel that sometimes the harder you greive is Gods way of showing how much you loved the person… God Bless you..
    PS I saw the winds and wondered how can you see all the beauty in leftover scraps and then thought, that is what God sees in us.
    Hugs to you, KathReplyCancel

  • Cathy DeaublOctober 31, 2011 - 9:36 am

    I’ve wondered often how you are doing as you move through this difficult part of your life. As upbeat as you are and with the faith you have I knew you would make it through. That’s not saying it’s ever easy. I lost my first child as an infant and it took a full three years before I was back to what I called normal. Even now, over thirty years later, she is in my thoughts nearly every day but as a guardian angel, watching over her family. In the beginning you just fake until you make it and one day you realize you aren’t faking it nearly as much. One day the pain will be less and all you will have are the wonderful memories of a love some people never attain. God bless you and keep you.

    Cathy D.ReplyCancel

  • dschelleOctober 31, 2011 - 9:37 am

    Becca, I found you not long ago and did not know of your lost. Reading this bought tears to my eyes and touched my heart. You opened up your heart and let us in and I felt like I’ve known you all along. Life is a roller coaster with ups and downs and we take it as it comes. Wishing you more good and happy days ahead.ReplyCancel

  • Frances EricksonOctober 31, 2011 - 9:41 am

    Becca, when I first saw your card with the wings, it literally took my breath away. I felt so much emotion just looking at the card. Then when I read your post, my heart filled with love for you and so much thankfulness that you came into my life. You have so many “Friends” who love you that you don’t even know by face but we are your prayer warriors, we are your sounding board if you need us to be, we are the recipient of the love you are sending by way of your cards. Friends are friends – no matter if for a reason, a season or a lifetime. I cannot begin to say I can empathize with the loss of your beloved but I can sympathize and be here to send you good thoughts, love and prayers. Thank you for your honesty and for giving us an opportunity to be here for you as you are for us. God Bless youReplyCancel

  • Carol E BrookerOctober 31, 2011 - 9:43 am

    Yes, they are wings, God bless you every day…ReplyCancel

  • PatOctober 31, 2011 - 9:43 am

    Dear Becca,

    My heart and thoughts are with you today and each day. You are an inspiration to me. I start each day with you and a cup of jo…. It does not matter if it is a year or ten — we wish our loved ones were still here with us –
    but know that you will meet again. Those are beautiful WINGS – to lift you up and carry you forward. Thanks for who you are. GOD Bless you and your family.ReplyCancel

  • shawneegalOctober 31, 2011 - 9:45 am

    Hi Becca, I just read your blog and am filled with feelings for you. I am sorry for your great loss of your loved one ; smiling because you are beginning to find your way back to your blue skies ; and awed by the faith you show us daily in our Lord, even when you are hurting.
    I see the angel wings also. The ones by the ornament are turned down to enclose and comfort and the ones you put on your card signify ( to me) the hope and uplifting power of God’s love.
    This will be a tough time for you, I am sure but you have many thoughts and prayers coming your way . God Bless , PamReplyCancel

  • Sherian DixonOctober 31, 2011 - 9:45 am

    The wings are beautiful and the sentiment is amazing! I have clung to God’s word in many situations and circumstances and still am doing so in many others. Thankfully we have a faihful God!ReplyCancel

  • Bonnie WeissOctober 31, 2011 - 9:45 am

    My thoughts are with you Becca. I hope that with each new passing day, your hurt is lessened and your memories strengthened. Hugs.ReplyCancel

  • Mary HOctober 31, 2011 - 9:46 am

    Becca, It DOES INDEED look like wings, and beautiful wings too. I often have thought of you, but didn’t like to bring up things that might make you unhappy. It takes a long time to grieve through losing someone you love. God will provide healing, but in His own time. You have your good days, your bad days. On the bad days, one just has to try to stay busy if possible, and sob along with whatever you’re doing. On the good days, you remember the love & happiness. Yes, He does have a plan for our lives, and things will happen as He wills. When you hurt, it is hard to always remember that, so He is there to Hold you close. Your beautiful cards are from Him, thru you. It is the gift you give to your readers….Thank you for sharing, and know that many pray for your healing. God Bless.ReplyCancel

  • Cindy DurganOctober 31, 2011 - 9:50 am

    We all wonder what our purpose is and never realize that just by being here and sharing ourselves is what it is all about. You have reached out by sharing your beautiful works and your litlle tid bits and phrases. They have touched in more ways than you will know. You and I don’t know each other but you have resurrected an old passion in me to be creative again and to share that with others that I normally would not have. I thank you for that. I too lost a husband @ a young age. I was devastated. It took me 5 years to met the next love of my life. I am blessed for that. I still think of my first husband tho it has been 33 years and it feels like yesterday. My brother died young from prostate cancer and I was there with him. What a terrible disease. I hope that you have support near you. Know that you have a lot of kindred folks that care for you in so many ways.ReplyCancel

  • Carolyn J ROctober 31, 2011 - 9:52 am

    It was so good to hear from you today. I have noticed that you have been doing a great job with your cards, but have not communicated much with us. I am so thankful that you are depending on God to walk with you on this journey through your grief. You express yourself so well in your blog and I pray that you continue to feel the love and support that all of us have for you as you encourage us

  • Frances Jane BlackwellOctober 31, 2011 - 9:52 am

    Becca,Just read your post and am glad you are doing as good as you are. I don’t think you will ever realize what an inspiration you are to so many of us especially me. I live and breathe to see what your next post will contain. I hope this next year will bring you closer to our Lord and Saviour
    because I know he will see you thru. and don’t ever forget prayers are being sent up ever day for you. It is kind of strange but wonderful to have a friend you have never meet but means so much to me and I do feel that you are that to many more people than you realize. Just keep up the walk you have been taking and God will be with you. Love, Frances JaneReplyCancel

  • ElviraOctober 31, 2011 - 9:54 am

    Stay strong, you to will get through this. Thank you for Sharing my thoughts and prayers are with you.ReplyCancel

  • Jackie LokkenOctober 31, 2011 - 9:55 am

    Love how you write and put your emotions out there,especially like a day like today. I can feel your words and how much your husband has meant to you.. The card was beautiful as always and thank you for sharing. God BlessReplyCancel

  • MarisaOctober 31, 2011 - 9:56 am

    Thanks for sharing your heart, Becca. It’s the thing I enjoy most when I visit blogs. A chance to see the person behind the creations a little bit. Healing is a journey and no two journeys are the same. The only constant is the wonderful knowledge of how much God loves you and will be there for you :) So blessed to hear you have such a dear friend who can walk this path with you, one who God can use to physically give you His hugs and love. There is no shame in the roller coaster ride! In time, the hills and valleys won’t be as intense. Your creations are amazing and the healing they bring to your soul are most likely deeper than you will ever know. Blessings, a huge cyber (((hug))) to you and I’ll pray a special prayer for you today :)ReplyCancel

  • Ree DonnellyOctober 31, 2011 - 9:56 am

    God bless you, Becca…

    Gentle hugs,


  • RobertaOctober 31, 2011 - 10:08 am

    Your card is lovely as always!! Yes I am on here almost everyday. I have NEVER seen anything that I didn’t love. I think you are the Best! I noticed you didn’t talk about what you go through very often. You are a very strong person in the Lord1 That is soooo easy to see. I know the Lord has His arms around you! Just remember you are BLESSED! Some never have what you had! I really don’t know you but I regard you very highly! God Bless you always!!ReplyCancel

  • Liz S.October 31, 2011 - 10:08 am

    You are so imaginative and creative to come up with wings out of that ornament die. I’ve also noticed you’re not posting like you were. I was thinking you’re having a hard time. I pray for you. As you may or may not remember, my husband died four years ago from cancer. It’s a hard row to hoe. Like you, I wonder what God’s plan is for me. Right now, I have two grandgirls since my husband’s passing and I try to be the best grandma I can be. I joined a gym with my stepdaughter almost two years ago to help me build up strength to be able to play with my grandgirls as I have a lot of weakness with fibromyalgia. Best thing I ever did as my one granddaughter is a busy, busy little girl. The other is still an infant but wants to be held all the time. It has also helped me build a relationship with my husband’s daughter. I guess what I’m saying is the gym helped save my sanity and has kept loneliness at bay. I’m glad you have your craft and blogging, and your very good friend.ReplyCancel

  • Marge R. (mer)October 31, 2011 - 10:08 am

    Sending sweet blessings to a beautifully talented strong and courageous woman on a difficult day in her journey through life for you are truly amazing!
    Becca, when I first viewed your card, I saw a most beautiful white lace bra instead of wings, but either way you look at it, it is absolutely GORGEOUS! LOVE it!!!ReplyCancel

  • BernieOctober 31, 2011 - 10:15 am

    If you recognize the names that visit every day you must realize I haven’t been by for a while. Busy preparing for craft fairs coming soon but this morning I had to take a brake and see how you were doing. Bless you my friend I know it’s a difficult day for you. Wrap yourself in your lovely memories of your sweet John. Cry when you need to. Know that we are all here sending you our love. Let yourself feel Our Heavenly Father’s arms around you, He loves you and it there to comfort you.
    I love your beautiful blue card and those wings are amazing.
    Blessings BernieReplyCancel

  • Charlotte ZweigoronOctober 31, 2011 - 10:17 am

    I have you as an icon on my desktop and visit every day since I was first introduced to you by my friend, Milu. Sometimes the email telling me you have a new post doesn’t get here fast enough for me to get my Becca creative food for the day so I go right to my desktop icon. Milu told me of your history and I have been astounded at the beauty you bring to life in the midst of your grief. This may sound strange but I envy you. I envy the fact that such a love ever presented itself in your life. I have been married for over 30 years to someone who is afraid of intimacy and strikes out emotionally when he feels caring and love from me. We often work side by side, doing a little dance to avoid touching. We live in a relationship of extreme politeness and enormous emptiness. For me I can only see joy in the fact that you ever experienced such a wonderful relationship. I would have to celebrate every single day I had experienced with such a man. We both grieve every day; you for a love that is no longer with you and me for a love I have never had. Still, God carries us both.ReplyCancel

  • Mary Jo POctober 31, 2011 - 10:20 am

    Thank you for the wings and your thoughts. I find wings wherever I can to remind of our angel.
    I’m afraid that I understand some of your story as we lost our 11 year old daughter suddenly this past February.
    Blessings to you on your journey.ReplyCancel

  • ChelseaOctober 31, 2011 - 10:21 am

    I always learn something from your posts, Becca. And I am always inspired. Today more than ever. Thank you for the glimpse into your world beyond card making. Getting to know through your posts has been a rich joy. You are very special.ReplyCancel

  • Penny ReedOctober 31, 2011 - 10:25 am

    Becca – I don’t post every day by any means, but I have noticed your absence and figured it was probably due to this sad milestone day. You have your heart in the right place – with the Lord, and you are so right about grieving – there is no right or wrong way to do it. Everyone has to do it on their own, in their own time. Tears are healing, so cry all you need to. All of us who follow you understand and are so blessed to have YOU in our lives. You bless us with every posting. Your work is art of the soul. So, take one day at a time and lean on Him for strength. This too shall pass. You are loved and prayed for!!!ReplyCancel

  • Dawnll from Dawns's Craft PlaceOctober 31, 2011 - 10:25 am

    I still say bloggers and crafty people are the best.
    I know in my short time 2 1/2 years- many people have supported me and helped me through so many rough patches.
    I am so glad you have this wonderful support system wrapped around you like angel wings.
    Thank you for sharing- and you are in my prayers.ReplyCancel

  • BobbiOctober 31, 2011 - 10:28 am

    You are right, God has a plan for you. He has given you a great gift in your creativity, and he has helped you cope with your great loss. You are very lucky to have had the love of a wonderful husband. I have learned in grief support that inch by inch it’s a cinch. Some days it’s easier than others. Never give up, and remember that we are all with you step by step. You are an inspiration to all of us.ReplyCancel

  • SheilaOctober 31, 2011 - 10:28 am

    I’m a regular vistor to your blog and look forward to newer inspirations each day… I’ve been a quiet admirer though, usually @ work in the am when I visit your blog, so seldom leave comments…

    These are wings for sure and they are wings of hope. Hope is a potent that God created to keep us immortal in our hearts and in our thoughts…

    There is no ‘one size fix all’ solution to fill a void left by such a loss in our lives… God always shows us a way, so hope you find peace within yourself through that way (I know this from personal experience).

    You have amazing creativity and this is a best constructive outlet for your energy, thoughts and spirit. I do notice an engineering-type brain at work underlying your creations (yes, I’m an engineer too…) and that’s what I visit every day to admire… and will continue to do so…

    Hope to cross paths at a Craft Show one day…


  • DesireeOctober 31, 2011 - 10:31 am

    A big hug to you, Becca!

    From Desiree in NorwayReplyCancel

  • Jan CastleOctober 31, 2011 - 10:34 am

    This I know…will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers as the Lord brings you to mind (often). You need to know that you inspire and uplift through your blog and are grateful that this is part of God’s plan for you at this time!
    Love and Paper Hugs,

  • RebekkaOctober 31, 2011 - 10:37 am

    They do look like wings Becca, and this card is just stunning.

    So glad you shared a portion of your journey with us. There is never a right or wrong in grieving. My Aunt who lost her husband (her first and only man) after 55 years of marriage still misses him and speaks about him like he is still here, he has been dead for 15 years. We all have fond memories of him and just join in with her down memory lane.

    You have been blessed with a wonderful talent of creating beautiful cards Becca, and I am sure this is just one of many purposes God has for you.

    Hugs & Blessings

  • BeverlyOctober 31, 2011 - 10:39 am

    Your beauty, your strength, your warmth all comes pouring out through your gorgeous crafting and your thoughtful blog. I’ve been following your blog for a couple of months and did not know of your tremendous loss. I’m so very, very sorry for the pain of grief that you must cope with. When I was 17, I heard this German proverb:
    “Those who live in the Lord never see each other for the last time.”
    It has stayed with me for the many decades since. It has brought me some comfort and I hope it does for you too… Hugs.
    Oh, and I saw wings immediately, before you explained your vision of them. :-)ReplyCancel

  • D IdletOctober 31, 2011 - 10:45 am

    Hi Becca, I have been following you for a long time, but I don’t always post. I must say, I have been missing you and I was thinking you must be going through something for you not to post. I am praying for you that these wings you created will lift you up and bring joy to you soon. Thank you for sharing your life with us and your creative cards!!!!ReplyCancel

  • Phyllis SOctober 31, 2011 - 10:46 am

    Thinking of you today Becca…oh those milestones! A friend keeps reminding me in rough times to not cry because it’s over, smile because it was. How true. Many people never had the wonderful husband or marriage you had, it is a blessing to be cherished. And, thank you God, for memories!!! Those tears are healing, though, and it’s more than okay to let them flow. As for your card, it is exquisite and I hope you consider it pure flattery that I am going to copy it for several friends going through loss at this time. Thank you for sharing your story and your card. You bless many people!ReplyCancel

  • CindyKOctober 31, 2011 - 10:49 am

    Dear Becca, I have been wondering how you are doing. Thank you for letting us know. It must be very, very hard to carry on, but I guess that’s what we need to do. I have a dear friend battling cancer. I am heartbroken for her. I pray for her often. I don’t know why the Lord takes away our faithful Christian friends. You keep doing what you are doing sweetie. You bless so many hearts with your gift of creativity! Hugs!ReplyCancel

  • HorsebroadOctober 31, 2011 - 10:49 am

    The wings you made were designed to enfold you on the hard days, and to lift your heart to God. On the good days, they were designed to make you soar. Your words made me think about a couple friends of mine who I need to visit more often than I do. Thank you and God bless.ReplyCancel

  • Jewell MoonOctober 31, 2011 - 10:52 am

    Hello Becca…..I can relate to where you are coming from….Twelve years ago today my Warren went to be with the Lord…….I miss him ever so much …but knowing he is with my Lord and Savior helps me to get
    through a lot of things…..My Warren passed away on my oldest daughters annaversary and was laid to rest on my middle daughters annaversary…..and now my oldest lost her husband on the sixth of March
    of this year……….so she is going through the first of everything….
    I know God makes no mistakes and my husband and son in law was very ill….so when the time was God’s time He took them home…..
    Becca you hang in there…and just remember …..God is always by your side………………hugs…..JewellReplyCancel

  • Pet BarnesOctober 31, 2011 - 10:55 am

    May God wrap His loving arms around you. Praying for you this day.ReplyCancel

  • Bev J.October 31, 2011 - 10:56 am

    Beautiful card-love the wings!

    Although I don’t post often, I read all your posts and have kept up with you. As a breast cancer survivor, I am very grateful every day. My prayers are with you always.ReplyCancel

  • SaraOctober 31, 2011 - 10:56 am

    Becca, Althought I don’t know you, I do know you. For you and all of us who have suffered losses in our lives that left unfillable holes in our hearts, I send my love.ReplyCancel

  • Debbie McKelveyOctober 31, 2011 - 11:00 am

    I understand that grieving is a process and we as your readers hope we help to make each day a little easier for you. I don’t always comment but I always read each blog and I am in awe of what you create. You take the simple and make them magnificent and gorgeous. I thank you for staying with us as you go through such a painful process and hope we help to make your sorrow a little less each day. So, that eventually you will be filled with all the wonderful memories and they will fill you with joy instead of sorrow. God bless!ReplyCancel

  • Janice P.October 31, 2011 - 11:01 am

    Thank you Becca for sharing the deepest feelings from your heart. You know that we all care for you very much. A friend comes into your life and touches your heart. You have touched my heart, and I think of you as my friend. Visiting you each day is a joy for me. I am always amazed at your talent, a talent from God. Blessings to you from a friend.ReplyCancel

  • Christine Harrop, Oxfordshire, UKOctober 31, 2011 - 11:06 am

    Hi Becca,
    I have been watching the calendar, knowing what was coming up for you, and have been thinking of you and remembering you in prayer. I don’t often comment but visit daily. Before I even read the post I took one look at your gorgeous card and those beautiful wings wafted over me. A liitle poem –

    Before you sleep just gently lay
    Every troubled thought away,
    Drop your worries and your care
    In the quiet arms of prayer.

    God bless.

    Christine xxReplyCancel

  • Lisa StewartOctober 31, 2011 - 11:11 am

    Hi Becca –
    You are as talented with words as you are with your cards. Both are beautiful, and thank you for sharing with all of us. God Bless, Lisa.ReplyCancel

  • TerreOctober 31, 2011 - 11:12 am

    God loves you and so do I…this much I know for sure!ReplyCancel

  • Diane JOctober 31, 2011 - 11:15 am

    Becca you are an inspiration to all of us. Until that word cancer hits a family I’m not sure that people really understand what it means. When that doctor tells you there is NO cure it changes not only your life but your family and their lives also. I know first hand. May God Bless YOU! Your card is simply beautiful. What an idea for left overs. Thank you for sharing.ReplyCancel

  • Peggy E.October 31, 2011 - 11:20 am

    Oh, my special blog friend, Becca, I am so, so sorry for your loss. I just began following your blog about 8 months ago and had no idea from your always cheerful words that you had lost the love of your life here on this earth. Upon reading your blog this morning I cried~~and prayed that God would just surround you with His loving arms and squeeze tight! We’re connected by the thin threads of your blog, but please know that you will continue to be in my prayers as the days move forward. May you continue to find peace and comfort in the love that surrounds you today. PeggyReplyCancel

  • MarilynOctober 31, 2011 - 11:21 am

    Becca, thank you for sharing your heart! It is encouraging to those going through life’s challenges! God bless you!ReplyCancel

  • ShirleyOctober 31, 2011 - 11:24 am

    Becca, thank you so much for your wonderful post today. You have such a beautiful way with words. I’ve been wondering for some time how you were doing emotionally. We’ve been hit a lot recently with that “C” word and makes up realize that life is a series of challenges and our faith can help us endure some of the heart ache. You were blessed with such a good man, and he was blessed with a wonderful woman. Thanks for opening your heart to all of us. By the way, your card is another gorgeous creation.
    Shirley L.
    Roseville, CAReplyCancel

  • Louise HOctober 31, 2011 - 11:31 am

    Hi Becca, I stop by your blog now and then and you amazed me with how you ‘carried on’. I can’t believe a year has passed, it must be a rough time for you. I’m sure that you find comfort in your blog buddies’ best wishes and constant encouragement. All I can say is, you are admired by many people, your work is phenomenal and your strength is inspiring. Thank you for sharing xxReplyCancel

  • Suzi YerkesOctober 31, 2011 - 11:38 am

    They make lovely wings. That was the first thing I thought of. If you think of it, the orniment we use to decorate the Christmas tree to celebrate the birth of Christ and the wings remind me of the angles watching over him and us. It will take time for the hurt to go away but the fond memories you have of your husband will eventually outweigh the hurt. Be strong as you are not alone in your journey.ReplyCancel

  • IreneOctober 31, 2011 - 11:38 am

    Oh Becca, my heart is with you. It is just over two years for me, and I could relate to everything you said.
    As my grief counsellor said, you never “get over it”, but you find a new normal. And the love definitely doesn’t die
    Huge hugs on this sad day

  • LaurenOctober 31, 2011 - 11:41 am

    Dear Becca, I have missed your blogs, knowing in my heart that it is selfish of me to miss you………what I know for sure is……….
    Listen to the whispers……they are real and they are from love. It is John whispering to you…….this I know for sure.
    Be well and safe, breathe and listen.

  • Margaret CrawfordOctober 31, 2011 - 11:43 am

    Hi Becca Just love your beautiful cards and blog. Life sure can be a challenge. Keep hold of the handlebars and the cycling will get easier.You are such an inspiration and a very brave lady, opening your heart to those who have taken you into theirs. Margaret (Scotland)ReplyCancel

  • RitaOctober 31, 2011 - 11:43 am

    Hi Becca,
    I too have lost my husband, my soulmate just a mere 3 months ago to a heart attack stemming from kidney dialysis. Your paragraph (below) said it all. We made it to our 34th anniversary & our son’s 30th birthday when just 3 days later our lives were thrown into chaos. I so know about the ‘mud’. Card therapy is my float in this lake of pain.
    Thank you for sharing your talent.

    “I cry a lot. I don’t subject other people to it but I’m not embarrassed by it either. It’s just the healthy signs of putting to bed a rich marriage filled to the brim with unconditional love and the memories of a phenomenal man. Love doesn’t die . . . this much I know.”ReplyCancel

  • JoanneOctober 31, 2011 - 11:45 am

    Hello Becca,

    I’ve been thinking of you, realizing we don’t hear from you as much and have been thinking that it has to be a tough time for you. Your faith in our Savior is so inspiring, and He has given you great talent and a way to express your emotions in your artwork, your cards. I hope you know that we care about YOU, we love your cards and enjoy seeing your ingenuity and creative genius, but it is when you share your heart, no matter where it is that you really touch us.

    It’s clear from all of the posts left already that so many of those of us who follow your blog are going through difficult paths as well. Reading one of them really touched me, for this woman is wondering why she’s still here. My heart goes out to her and her very difficult journey, and I’m wondering if there’s a way for your blog members to minister to each other. I know that I immediately wanted to leave this woman an encouraging e-mail, but of course I couldn’t do that, and for a good reason of privacy which I understand. If Sheila (#20 of your comments) happens to read this, know that there’s ALWAYS a reason that we’re here. I won’t waste time sharing my story, but I lost much because of an accident and have certainly wondered in the early times (it’s been 20 years) what was my purpose in being here, but God has shown me over and over again the blessing of being here, and I’m thankful that I can share His love with those I come into contact each day. My life is very limited now, but I know with all of the certainty I can muster that life is so very precious, and that God uses each of us to do special tasks that may seem small to us, but can be a huge blessing to someone who is hurting. I’m amazed at some of the cards I’ve been able to make, very simple cards, but I assumed I couldn’t do anything like this and was wrong. It’s a new fun in a new world, and I’m grateful for it.

    Becca, when you share your grief with us, you allow all of us to be transparent, and see what beautiful stories were shared, and mostly from those of us who don’t normally leave comments.

    I’m so impressed with your spirit, your artistic talent leaves me speechless (and having worked at a high level in one area of the arts, I KNOW talent! :) ) and I love to see what your artistry pulls “out of the box” for us all to see, and expect greatness from you and I’m not disappointed. But for me, you totally touch my heart when you allow us to have a brief look into the difficult path you’ve been given. Know that not only your artistic talent touches us, but so does the artistry in your heart. There’s a book inside you, and clearly you have the ability to write one. All in God’s perfect timing and plan though. My heart aches for you, and I know you wish you were on your former path with your wonderful John, and how we all wish that had been the plan. But God’s plans and ways are so much better, we just cannot see what He does. I can’t understand why my life has taken the turn it has either, and clearly neither can many of these wonderful, vibrant women who have also gone through so much, but the reason they can go on is the same one that allows you to keep putting one foot ahead of the other, even on days that it seems completely impossible. For we KNOW that His ways are best, even though we can’t possibly understand them. We TRUST, that’s the basis for our faith. You’re living your faith, and we are all cheering you on. Most of these women can understand your grief because they are living it too, not exactly like yours but have their own tough stories, and it’s YOU and your wonderful heart that allows them to write, and you are responsible for healing that takes place from reading your personal story and the healing that comes from the sharing of their stories too. WOW, God has big plans for you, Becca, of that I’m sure! I LOVE your writing, when you share your heart. You should only share when you want to though, your privacy is important too.

    Thank you for being such a blessing to all of us. And to Sheila, you are a blessing to those who are around you, and you’re a blessing to all of us who read your note. Your name is going on my prayer list, and I’m praying that you will feel the love of God, that you’ll feel His loving arms around you, and that you will KNOW that life is always precious. He will show you your path, of that I’m totally confident.

    I know that God is walking beside you, Becca. And all of us who read your blog are cheering you along, just as you encourage us too. Thank you for being such a blessing to all of us.

    With love, JoanneReplyCancel

  • conniecrafterOctober 31, 2011 - 11:53 am

    Oh my this is Absolutely Gorgeous, and before I read a think I knew they were wings :) Love the beautiful piece for the center of the ribbon!
    Sorry to hear about the rough days, I can’t even imagine what your going through but so thankful that you have a great friend to be with you through this journey in your life, may God uplift you and carry your through each and every dayReplyCancel

  • Rachel NelsonOctober 31, 2011 - 12:00 pm

    The Lord comes to us in mysterious ways. I have always wondered how you were doing after your loss, but not being anyone but someone who admires your work and blog I felt I didn’t want to impose, but reading what you wrote about grief helped so much. Last Monday my mentor, my best friend, my father died and all week long I have felt like it’s a battle to get through each day. Unfortunately, I am not good at appearing cheerful–like my father I wear my heart on my sleeve and let the tears roll whenever and wherever they may. I have things to occupy my mind but not always my time. I thank the Lord for sharing my father with me and for my daughter and husband who are helping during this difficult time. I have also felt anger at the people who remind me that he is at peace. I think at this sensitive time I don’t take the words as they are meant and feel like they are telling me to get over it. I am praying for the strength to not lash out and not feel so angry. Your words will help. Thank you.ReplyCancel

  • Robin GasserOctober 31, 2011 - 12:04 pm

    Becca, Since I only recently ‘found’ you, I had no idea of your loss. I am so sorry. My husband and I have been married for 36 years and I can’t imagine what you have had to experience. I only know that God always has a plan even though we may not see it, like it or want it.
    Thank you for your art–I look forward to it every day and, yes, I absolutely see the wings in today’s card. It is beautiful.

  • JoannaOctober 31, 2011 - 12:06 pm

    Becca: your lovely card touched me. I saw the wings and cried a little too because I too am grieving. Mine is the loss of my mother, gone just two months now. I know that God has a plan for me (and you). We need to hang on to that thought, knowing that happier days are on the way. Jeremiah 29:11.

    You have to know that your talent uplifts me daily. Thanks for sharing your lovely work.ReplyCancel

  • Matilde HannaOctober 31, 2011 - 12:14 pm

    Stay strong Becca.ReplyCancel

  • Beth POctober 31, 2011 - 12:14 pm

    OH Becca, I didn’t know you back last year so I was unaware of the trials you have been going through! My heart reaches out to you as a friend whom I just haven’t had the opportunity to have met face to face, yet…you never know. My sweet, you are right in everything you say especially life and people moving on at that crazy break neck pace the world now moves at, and they leave it up to you to catch up or, as you say, not. You are catching up, I can feel it in your words. You have experienced something that we all experience in some form or fashion at some point in our lives…and it is just that there are no words that comfort or take the pain away…only time, prayer and love of friends and yes, even strangers will help the mending to occur so you can rejoin the rest of us, albeit changed for life for the stronger. I mourn your loss with you as well as revel in your healing…I send you my most heartfelt prayers and well wishes for finding the strength to continue on in your journey of fulfillment of life’s plan for you.
    Much love and hugs,
    Beth PReplyCancel

  • Amanda BowerOctober 31, 2011 - 12:18 pm

    Peace be with you my friend.ReplyCancel

  • Francie (Montreal)October 31, 2011 - 12:19 pm

    I am touched to the core of my soul reading your blog today and your followers’ precious comments. Dear Becca, like all your e-friends, I am grieving along with you, for you. It is said that with each tear, we are healed a little more; that we are a step closer to becoming fully functioning people again; able to rejoice in the wonderful memories without the agonizing hurt. So as you feel each stab of pain, take some small comfort that it is one less pain to be felt in the future. You are indeed a lucky woman to have felt the depths of John’s love. And he was clearly a very fortunately man, to have loved and been loved by you. God bless you and help you heal.ReplyCancel

  • MickiOctober 31, 2011 - 12:22 pm

    Many {{{{HUGS}}}}. You are such a sweet strong person. I know that things will get better for you, it’ll just take a little bit more time. Thinking of you always.ReplyCancel

  • Barbara JayOctober 31, 2011 - 12:24 pm

    Becca your card is magnificent! When I saw it I said, ” Where did she get those wings?” Then I read farther and saw where you got them:)

    The first year is the hardest! You had to face each holiday and occasion without John. It will never be easy, but next year and in years to come it will be a little easier. You will be able to say you got through last year’s holidays and you will make it this year too .

    You ask what God’s plan is for you? I don’t know, but I will say what you give me. I can always come to your site and see something creative and beautiful that lifts my spirits. You give me faith there are very sincere and honest people. I have read your blog every day for over two years and never once have you offered an idea and passed it off as you own idea . I see others claim original ideas on their blogs when I have seen the exact idea earlier on another blog. You never do that . I can’t say what God wants for you , but maybe he wants us to know there are beautiful & honest people like you . In spite of your tears you have lifted a lot of heavy hearts .
    Barbara JayReplyCancel

  • Jocelan PerryOctober 31, 2011 - 12:43 pm

    Becca you are a very special spirit and I think of you every day.I lost my mother in March of this year,it seems so weird how things seem to just pop up that makes you realize the the person you love is gone.
    I know one thing for sure you will be with your John again one day,and you can be together for tine and all eternity.May God bless you and give you strength to carry on one day at a time,and may all the special memories you have brighten your day.

  • Deanna PaquetteOctober 31, 2011 - 12:56 pm

    Becca, I pray to God for strength and peace for you and your family on this anniversary of John’s passing from this life into his heavenly home.
    Blessings to you and your family.

  • Kathy KelsheimerOctober 31, 2011 - 1:09 pm

    You are precious, Becca. This much I know.ReplyCancel

  • christine savilleOctober 31, 2011 - 1:09 pm

    Becca, My heart goes out to you today. I have lost some very close family members over the past two years so I know how your grief feels.Just to let you know you are in my thoughts.

    Love ChrisReplyCancel

  • CindyOctober 31, 2011 - 1:10 pm

    Dear Sweet Becca,
    You mean so much to so many bloggers around the world. I pray you can feel the circle of God’s love around you today and always. Please read Ecclesiastes 3:1,6. New stages in our spiritual journey offer new chances to learn and serve. I can’t tell you how much I enjoy opening my email and seeing what you create!ReplyCancel

  • Peggy MaierOctober 31, 2011 - 1:19 pm

    Praying that you will feel the comforting arms of the Savior around you today. Yes, you are coming out of the fog…but it takes TIME…
    Keep on hanging in there (I know you will because of that optimism) & know that we all care.ReplyCancel

  • CrystalOctober 31, 2011 - 1:21 pm

    Becca, lovely card as always you are such an inspiriation to me. may the good Lord continue to bless you and put His loving arms around and comfort you always.May you continue to walk from strength to strength in Him everyday. Blessings.ReplyCancel

  • Cathy HughesOctober 31, 2011 - 1:30 pm

    Becca, I am one of your silent followers. Grieving the loss of a loved one is only by taking it one step at a time.

    “He whispered, “My precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never, ever, during your trials and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you.”

    Just keep seeing the “steps”…one at a time!

    Thank you for the posting. I now know how to get wings when I need them.


  • Ann CunninghamOctober 31, 2011 - 1:31 pm

    A big hug to you Becca! all your cards are so beautiful……xx Ann UKReplyCancel

  • Joyce M.October 31, 2011 - 1:36 pm

    I well remember you in your hour of grief as I was dealing with my own husband who is still battling cancer 3 1/2 yrs. now. Then in march I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer at stage3c. So it has been the battle of battles for all of us. I know how hard it is on the families and then when both of us are battling it is even worse. But I am on only one drug Avastin every three weeks now and getting hair againYEAH, and scrapbooking again . So God leads you all the way and gives you strength to do whatever you need to do. God Bless and keep on keeping on. I also have a wonderful pair of friends who are there every step of the way and I am so blessed for that fact alone. Have a great day!ReplyCancel

  • Marisa JobOctober 31, 2011 - 1:38 pm

    Oh Becca, I did not know, my heart breaks for you. You will feel better each day that goes by, the Lord will give you back that joy again, grieving takes time but you will be very happy again, I know you will!
    I don’t know you in person but I already love you. Every time I see your beautiful creations you bring a big smile on my face. Your love for God is so transparent in your cards and they inspire me every time.
    I hope I have the joy of meeting you in person one day, I live in the LA area, maybe at the next CHA show.
    May the Lord bless you and give you the strength you need everyday!

  • DeborahOctober 31, 2011 - 1:47 pm


    Though I never comment on your blogs, I do read them and signed up to receive them in my inbox. I love your designs. It’s really strange how one wonders about the people they see on the other side of the monitor, but don’t really know. I often wondered if you were married, and I’m sad to know of your loss through this milestone. Just know that each time you blog or post one of your creations, you are fulfilling your purpose in life – giving hope to someone who might not otherwise have it – your creations are inspiring and the messages are uplifting. Keep doing what you’re doing. I will be praying for you. Blessings.ReplyCancel

  • Eunice BrownOctober 31, 2011 - 2:02 pm

    Dear Becca, it’s been a while since I left a note on your blog, even though I visit everyday.I often wondered how you were doing this past year, even though you seemed to carry on just fine. I understand the process and know that only God and time can mend the rift you must have been feeling these past months. Please know that you are well loved out here and we appreciate all your beautiful creations. you and your family are in my prayers, and I hope and pray you will find peace.
    Love and peace!ReplyCancel

  • Susan HOctober 31, 2011 - 2:06 pm

    Dear Beautiful Becca….I’m a lurker on your blog, but have been following your story and cards for quite a while. You are often in my thoughts and prayers. You are a wonderful inspiration. ((((HUGS))))
    PS…I saw the wings right away!ReplyCancel

  • CarolenOctober 31, 2011 - 2:21 pm

    Recognised the ribbon as wings instantly!

    Becca, words fail me but this much I know: love is indeed eternal and you are righ,t you will be okay!

    God bless!ReplyCancel

  • AlisonOctober 31, 2011 - 2:21 pm

    Wishing you well Becca. Love your wings they really do look like wings! What a beautiful card you have made with special meaning. May you continue to rise up from adversity and lift us at the same time.
    Thank you for sharing your feelings with us allReplyCancel

  • GerryOctober 31, 2011 - 2:30 pm

    God’s blessings on you, dear lady. Yes, angel wings grace your card and your life.ReplyCancel

  • Debbie BOctober 31, 2011 - 2:30 pm

    Oh Becca, if you only knew how much you lift my spirits when I see your beautiful cards and read the beautiful words on your blog. It has been 5½ years since I lost my oldest son to suicide (not cancer, I know) but you know, God has walked with me every step of the way, every tear I have shed, every wish of one more hug, kiss, look, etc that I want. He assures me that I will be with him again one day in heaven. This I know is true. That he was taken at such a young age (23) is one the mysteries that only God knows the answer to. I love being able to come to your blog for a warm hug every day and I hope that you know how much you mean to me. It may just be a blog hug but here’s one coming at you!! God loves you and so do I!ReplyCancel

  • ChinnuOctober 31, 2011 - 2:32 pm

    Dear Becca,
    Yes, angel wings indeed. Please know that you are thought of, prayed for and “hugged” by me ever so often, even though you and I have never met.

    There was a card that you had made a while ago using a QuietFireDesign stamp, and I loved the QFD sentiment so much that I bought that stamp and used it on a card for a friend of mine who was devastated and lost after her husband passed away (also from cancer). My friend said the sentiment brought her great comfort. It said, “We are never so lost that our angel cannot find us. ”

    I’m sure your angel, John, is watching over you, Becca.


  • Becky GreenOctober 31, 2011 - 2:42 pm

    Oh Becca, God Bless You!!!!!!!! I haven’t had the experience of loosing someone close to me to death, but I have experienced death of relationships of those close to me! The emptiness, the sorrow, the grieving…There ARE blue skies IN TIME! JUST MAYBE, that’s what your card symbolizes in being blue, rather than pink! A SENSE OF HOPE OF A BETTER DAY!!!!!!!!!
    Hugs & Prayers!!!! :)ReplyCancel

  • Jill NorwoodOctober 31, 2011 - 2:44 pm

    Becca and all you beautiful commenters: I am so touched by your words…and by all of the difficulties that life gives to each of us. My husband Stuart is 1 year and 3 months into his battle with Glioblastoma Multiforme IV – Primary Brain Cancer. Our little family of three has been through so much in the past year but we have also received blessings from this journey too. Life is full of struggle and heartache and two steps forward and 1 giant step back. I know not where this journey will end for my husband but I know that the support that we receive on these “blog-waves” is a gift….and beautiful cards and sentiments are what I call “paper-hugs” and we all need them! Becca thanks for sharing your heart with us today and I pray that you feel peace in your soul more and more as the days go by. I know there is a good chance that I will be walking similar footsteps in the near future. Each day truly is a gift from God!ReplyCancel

  • AmandaMOctober 31, 2011 - 2:47 pm

    First of all I would like to thank you for sharing your story and how you deal with your sadness. My brother just passed away yesterday, and I have been searching for ways to find a smile. You have given that to me in your post today. I can’t imagine what you must be feeling since you lost your John, but I am sure he is with you in so many ways. I know we can’t always understand God’s plans for us, but I have to say that maybe part of his plan for you is to inspire your readers in one way or another. You make a difference to a lot of people, whether it be inspiring them with a card or being a kindred spirit. God bless you.ReplyCancel

  • Rebya FalkOctober 31, 2011 - 2:59 pm

    Becca, Your work and your beauty touch me..that’s why you are at the top of my daily looking for ideas blogs!!!
    I have no words to make life easier for you…God is there..remember the poem about footprints in the sand.

  • BevOctober 31, 2011 - 3:02 pm

    You have been my inspiration every day. Your gifted and you can see the love in everything you create. Know this that John is by your side each and every day pushing you to get on with your life. God gives us so many things that we take for granted and just reading your blogs every day has changed my outlook on life, look at all the beauty in the little things, always say “Thank You”, and “I love You!” God has plans for all of us put you are special because John is now your Guardian Angel. Lots of prayers to you and may God Bless you and your family!!ReplyCancel

  • Clare CurcioOctober 31, 2011 - 3:06 pm

    Becca, I was touched to the core with your blog post! I cannot imagine what it would be like for Mike to be gone! I don’t want to go through that, and I don’t want him to go through it with me either! But it is in God’s hands, and we have to trust Him! I still pray for your peace and comfort, faith and healing. Take good care!ReplyCancel

  • Linda StandartOctober 31, 2011 - 3:07 pm

    Becca, I just passed the second anniversary of my husband’s death. I won’t tell you it gets easier. That would be a lie. But I will tell you from my own experience that you learn more and better ways to cope and you learn to how to live the life he would want you to live as you go on without his physical presence. You learn that one way or another he is still with you and pushing you to go on and grow and flourish in your new life. That’s what love is. It never dies. It may change and mutate and grow into something new with changes in circumstances, but lov is eternal and John loved you and still loves you.
    God bless and keep you and guide you as you continue to grow and ‘become’ in your new life. Listen to your inner heart and hear John whisper his words of love to you
    Linda S in SCReplyCancel

  • angela kiddOctober 31, 2011 - 3:10 pm

    Hi Becca,
    I’m thinking about you on this sad day. All I can say is that it does get better, you will never forget John and the hurt never goes away – its just that you learn to cope with life.
    Love & kisses ~Angela~ (UK) xxReplyCancel

  • Anne ( Midlands UK)October 31, 2011 - 3:15 pm

    Hello Becca have not posted for a while but have looked and you are often in my thoughts – I’ve been wondering how you were really – behind the cheerfulness of your blog and your beautiful cards. I annot imagine what it is like for you but know that my Mum still cries at times and my Dad died five years ago now. Take care, you will be in my thoughts and prayers always.
    Anne x
    PS I thought angel wings before I read your post. XReplyCancel

  • Kelly SasOctober 31, 2011 - 3:26 pm

    I am not one to write ea day or even ea week, but I love your cards, I love your strong faith and not being quite about it, I love your talent – therefore I check your blog ea day. I have been praying for you (and in the past John too) for probably two years now. I appreciate your sharing how you are holding up this past year but know that you never have to share more than you want or can. you are well loved. We will come everyday because of whom you are and your God given talent. May He continue to be your strength. How wonderful to know that today is John’s first birthday in heaven!ReplyCancel

  • Cheryl StaufferOctober 31, 2011 - 3:31 pm

    Becca, thank you for sharing your comments today on your blog. The angel wings were so appropriate today and they definitely look like angel wings. John and his love will always be with you, please remember that
    on the difficult days. May God continue to comfort you. I visit your blog almost daily and am always inspired by your creative talents and your willingness to share them with us. I will continue to pray for you.ReplyCancel

  • ColleenOctober 31, 2011 - 3:41 pm

    I read your bolg everyday I never comment but I felt compelled to to say that those are absolutely angel wings! Just another sigh that HE is with you…ReplyCancel

  • Carol WOctober 31, 2011 - 3:46 pm

    Oh Becca….this much I know…you are a very special person and whatever time it takes to move forward is definitely the amount of time you must allow yourself. As you say you are making headway and that is progress…give yourself all you need to heal….and do it on your own schedule….this is a great loss and you need to take care of you…

    Sending big hugs your way…


  • Vickie KrivacsOctober 31, 2011 - 3:49 pm

    God is faithful. His word endures forever. This much I know.ReplyCancel

  • Barb GhigliottyOctober 31, 2011 - 3:54 pm

    Hi Becca,
    I’m so glad you shared with us today….I love, love your card, and yes, those are wings – GORGEOUS WINGS!

    You have such a beautiful soul, and I mean that! It comes through in all your posts and in all the lovely cards and projects you create!

    Today, I am thankful for YOU! I wish you all of God’s blessings ~

    Barb G.ReplyCancel

  • Ruth S.October 31, 2011 - 3:58 pm


    My heart goes out to you but I does get better in time, I have a friend who lost a great my her husband and I have been through it all for her and she still has bad days but I see it getting better for her too, just hold on to Jesus without him we could not make and one comfort is you will see your wonderful husband again,

    God Bless…..ReplyCancel

  • MaryannOctober 31, 2011 - 4:08 pm

    Hi Becca,
    I know, that we´re many here, who´s thinking of you in these hard days here. I was really touched by your words here today and that gorgeous card, you´ve made too. It´s both so exceptional and amazing.
    I know, you´re going throug a really ahrd time and there´s no right answers to how to griefe and for how long, as it ofcuase all depends on the individual, so you just take all the time you need and never be aftraid to ask anyone here for help, if that´s what you need. I´m sure, there´s thousands of people, who would gladly give you all the help possible, if you need it, as you have always been giving sooo much of yourself to all of us inhere.
    I come here every day to follow your stunning work and read your wise words all the time, and I always feel calm and in peace, when I´ve been here. I truely admirte you so much, both as a crafter but also as a human, and wish I could be anything like you hun. You are such a wonderful inspration to everybody around you all the time, and I sure wish, there was some more I could do to ease your pains and help you feel better.
    Take all the time you need hun and take very good care of yourself.
    Biiiiiiiig warm cyberhugsReplyCancel

  • PamOctober 31, 2011 - 4:11 pm

    Becca, the 31st October would have been my wedding anniversary – 12 years on the memories of a loving partner are a great comfort. So you are very much in my thoughts and prayers as this time approached. Cardmaking came into my life as a coping mechanism at the time and daily visits to your blog for quite a while now continually inspire and encourage.
    I hope that the wings of faith and hope you have shared with us will surround you and your family and the warm embrace of love from your blog friends will sustain and encourage you. Everybody’s journey through grief is different but through the “amazing grace” of God we are loved and supported by the angels around us.ReplyCancel

  • EllenOctober 31, 2011 - 4:21 pm

    I am one of your newer readers so wasn’t aware of your terrible loss. My heartfelt sympathy to you and your family. Keep leaning on the Lord, He will give you comfort and eventually return your joy in life. God Bless You richly as you bless so many every day by your wonderful sharing of your talent in your blog. Thank you.ReplyCancel

  • IreneOctober 31, 2011 - 4:21 pm

    Your honest outpouring brought tears to my eyes. What a beautiful tribute to your husband. You are truly a model for so many people going through losses…You represent so well that it is OK to grieve as long as we are moving forward. Thanks for all that you do….my best to you!ReplyCancel

  • Becky DOctober 31, 2011 - 4:23 pm

    Oh my dear Becca! As I only joined the blogging world last December and not sure when I found you exactly, I was unaware of your loss. I knew you had things you struggled with as you hinted here and there, but I did not know what you were dealing with really and not wanting to ask as I am really a stranger even though I consider you to be a blogging friend. My heart is aching for you reading this post, but I am so glad that you are starting to come out of the fog. I don’t know how you are doing it, but I know your faith is strong and you have lots of people praying for you – that much I know :) Hugs to you sweet lady.ReplyCancel

  • Angela FehrOctober 31, 2011 - 4:32 pm

    Thanks for sharing this, Becca. I’m new enough to your blog that I didn’t know you had lost your husband. May God’s peace rest on your life and you find joy in the days to come.ReplyCancel

  • DeenaOctober 31, 2011 - 4:37 pm

    Dear Becca, You will never know what a joy you are to so many people. Your talent is amazing.Your words and strength give so much inspiration and comfort. When I read your words today I was really moved. I thought not of angels wings but of Gods strength,comfort and protection.
    When I was going through a really difficult time in my life I asked someone to pray with me. She did so and then ‘gave me’ Psalm 91.
    Verse 4 says’ He will cover you with his feathers and under his wings you will find refuge, his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart’.
    I consider that night,to have been a real turning point in my life. Even after all these years I find that particular Psalm and the idea of God covering me and my family with his wings to protect us from harm, such a comfort. I pray that same comfort and protection for you and your family at this difficult time.ReplyCancel

  • Vicky SchmidtOctober 31, 2011 - 4:45 pm

    Becca, Thank you for your sharing. It will get better but you never forget the wonderful experiences. Many times something will trigger a memory that will bring back a good experience. Your John sounds like a wonderful person. I think of you often especially the last year. May God bless you with peace. Love, VickyReplyCancel

  • LaurieJOctober 31, 2011 - 4:45 pm

    Absolutely lovely card. I totally see angel wings!
    I have often wondered how you are doing. I’m so glad to hear that you feel like you are finally emerging from the fog. I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.ReplyCancel

  • Kathy SOctober 31, 2011 - 4:47 pm

    I love your angel wings and was wondering how you cut them just so. they may be a sign that HE is still watching over you as we all are and you are one amazing (no pun intended) person – thank you for sharing- Bless you and yoursReplyCancel

  • cindy ClickOctober 31, 2011 - 4:51 pm

    Becca, It was about a year ago when I found your wonderful blog. I was unaware of the loss of your husband. All I know I had found a beautiful place where I wanted to visit everyday to see what beautiful things you created to share with us. (I am still embarrassed, I asked you alot of questions about how you got started, and it was probably right smack dab in the middle of the worst time of your life!) You were gracious , as usual, and referred me to several sites to help me along.
    Since then, I gradually have learned bits and pieces of your life. I know you are a Godly, talented, tender hearted woman and your faith and talent has blessed my life. May God give you peace and bless you as much as you have blessed all of us.

  • LynneZOctober 31, 2011 - 4:56 pm

    Becca – I think your doilies look just like angel wings. Simply beautiful as is everything you make. You don’t know how many lives you touch with your blog and how much your followers care about your well being. So much for you to work through, but with your faith anything is possible – even probable! We all love you and God loves you and walks with you more than you can ever imagine.ReplyCancel

  • Judy AOctober 31, 2011 - 5:19 pm

    My thoughts and prayers are with you Becca. I know how difficult your
    journey is, and know that you will continue to find the strength and courage to move forward. You are an inspiration to all those around you.
    May God bless you and give you peace. ( The card is beautiful.)ReplyCancel

  • FayeOctober 31, 2011 - 5:34 pm

    Dearest Becca,
    They do look like wings.
    I read your blog daily and you are an encouragement. The words that you posted today touched my heart.
    I also cry a lot, you see, the love of my life, my husband of 48 years, went home to be with his Heavenly Father January 11, 2011. The next three months will be difficult as there are the Holidays, my birthday, our wedding anniversary and then “that day”.
    I sat here and cried while reading not only your blog but the posts left by other ladies that are also hurting.
    My husband did not have cancer. He was a diabetic and dialysis patient but he suffered an intercranial hemorrhage and died within a few hours. It doesn’t matter the cause of death, when the heart is crushed from losing a loved one it will take a long time to even to start to heal. Some days I don’t feel as though that day will ever come but I do know that God is in control.
    Thank you once again for your encouraging blog’s and remember there are a lot of us here that know what you are feeling.
    God Bless and keep you under His wings.

  • Kim JOctober 31, 2011 - 5:36 pm


    Angel wings for sure. Thank you for sharing your heart and your talent with us. I pray God’s riches blessings on you as you travel this journey through grief. Your life is a witness to a godly marriage, and I know God will use your testimony to glorify His Son. I am so thankful that we as Christians can grieve with hope. {{Hugs}} Becca.ReplyCancel

  • JenelleOctober 31, 2011 - 5:37 pm

    Dear Becca, I have followed your blog since just before John passed, I admire your work and your strength. You are an inspiration to many. That said I can appreciate how you feel, my Father passed away when I was 19, I was still living at home with my Mother and saw the pain she went through. Mum and Dad had been married for 27 years and had a wonderful, loving relationship, my Dad had my Mum and a pedestal and treated her accordingly. My Fathers death was sudden and definitely unexpected. In the beginning there were many people around, then after the funeral was over, there was no one. We lived in a relatively small town and even the Church Minister would cross the street rather than talk to Mum. So many people didn’t know how to “deal” with the situation, so consequently walk away. Fortunately for Mum, she had 3 children who loved her dearly and supported her and like you, one very good friend who was always there for her to help her through the tough times and keep her level.
    It is definitely a hard and long road, but you have shown a wonderful strength that is so inspirational to many of your readers. Keep up the wonderful work that you do and know that you have the support, love and prayers from a lot of people out here in blog land.
    God bless, and may he continue to give you strength and help you find the peace you seek.
    PS I saw the angel wings before I read the blogReplyCancel

  • deborahOctober 31, 2011 - 5:39 pm

    Becca you truly are an inspiration and I know God has a plan for you. I have lost love ones to cancer and every thing you talked about is true.. I had to let go and bless those who just were not strong enough to be there during or after. Even for those who are there eventually they must get back to their lives and you spend a lot of time thinking where did everyone go?
    I can only speak from my own place but for me the first year is always the hardest. Its the birthdays, anniversary, holidays, or just the remember whens.
    You are a strong woman with a powerful sense of faith you have made it through this first year the good, the bad and the ugly. Your faith has and will carry you through and the kind words of others
    will help too.
    I hope the journey becomes easier for you one day at a time. I know many people speak of closer and I am not fond of the word. For me it was aboutallowing God to bring me to a place of being healed and acceptance. Please know you are never truly alone when your faith is strong and so many people are sending prayers of peace and healing to you.
    Keep moving forward some days one foot in front of the other. Please also remember that your sharing will help someone else some day whether you know them or not. May God bless you and your family and bring you peace and love.ReplyCancel

  • Debbie OlsonOctober 31, 2011 - 5:51 pm

    Dear, sweet Becca,

    You are truly a blessing to so many people. . . {{{Hugs to you}}}, sweet friend, and continued prayers.

    Love, DebbieReplyCancel

  • Becca - GlasgowOctober 31, 2011 - 5:51 pm

    Hi Becca, I never leave a comment but wait with anticipation for your card every day. I know how you fell as I lost my wonderful Mum in May of this year (to cancer). I cant complain as I had her for almost 91 years but that doesnt make it any better as I cry at some point every day sometimes at the most unexpected times and hope and pray that she is in that better place and always watching over us. Please stay strong and keep posting those beautiful cards as you have such a gift and also a way with words. God blessx.ReplyCancel

  • Cindy CadeOctober 31, 2011 - 5:58 pm

    I think those wings represent the many who have commented and/or visit your site on a continued basis. You are a child of God. Precious in His site and ours too. We are on this journey with you. Hugs my sister.ReplyCancel

  • Marilyn ClarkOctober 31, 2011 - 6:03 pm

    Look like angel wings to me. Keeping you close in thought and prayer. Thanks for sharing. Love ya.ReplyCancel

  • Anna/OmaOctober 31, 2011 - 6:10 pm

    (((((((Great big hugs Becca!))))))))ReplyCancel

  • Jo Anna GrimsleyOctober 31, 2011 - 6:30 pm

    Been praying for you Becca, particularly the last week or so knowing that you would have a sad day today. Thanks for your wonderful post and sharing your feelings with us, your “electronic friends”. Jo4HimReplyCancel

  • SianOctober 31, 2011 - 6:41 pm
  • CherylOctober 31, 2011 - 6:41 pm

    Becca, the card is just beautiful and I love the angel wings!! I eagerly await every post you make. I check my mail every morning to see what dreamy things you have posted for us. You are such an inspiration.
    You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Big hugs to you today.
    May each and every day be a little brighter. Thank you for sharing with us. We all love you very much. CherylReplyCancel

  • SheriOctober 31, 2011 - 6:42 pm

    I have read your blog since almost day 1 and although I very seldom if ever comment, I want to say this today. You are still my hero. This much I know. HugsReplyCancel

  • lacyquilterOctober 31, 2011 - 6:47 pm

    Hugs, Becca. I know God loves you and will continue to see you through each and every moment.ReplyCancel

  • LeanneOctober 31, 2011 - 6:56 pm

    Dear Becca ~
    You are an amazing women. God is certainly been with you and watching over you during your ups and downs this past year. Life’s journeys can be so challenging and shraring your inner most thoughts this past year is an insperation. If I was there I would be wrapping my arms around you with hugs.
    May God continue you to hold you in the palm of his hand.
    Blessings to you….from LeanneReplyCancel

  • Kathy FrieszOctober 31, 2011 - 7:03 pm

    Your blog is an important part of my day. You give me inspiration to be more creative and I certainly appreciate the time and effort you put into the photos, tutorials, etc … and for all of us who have experienced the loss of immediate family, what a sad journey it is to finally reach the smiles and feeling of happiness again.
    Thinking of you …ReplyCancel

  • StephOctober 31, 2011 - 7:11 pm

    I dont usually post. Just felt i needed to send a hug and let you know that everything you are feeling is right on track been in your shoes lost my dad three years ago and it still hits me at the stranges times its just love. As far as his plans for you i think it is to show Gods love to others through your craftsReplyCancel

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  • SallyOctober 31, 2011 - 7:23 pm

    Dear Becca,
    You are such a blessing to so many people. The pain will ease and you will be able to remember all the good things without the pain of loss. I have absolutely no doubt that God has nothing but good things for you in the future. I am sending hugs and blessings

  • Sally-Ann Huson - AustraliaOctober 31, 2011 - 7:29 pm

    I look forward to your blogs so much and like some, rarely leave a comment after my daily visits. What a huge inspiration you are to us all. I am a relatively new visitor and would like to say that your wonderful talent channels so much spiritual and creative energy to me (and VERY obviously) many others. Thank you for being such a strong conduit and for bravely sharing the meaning and magic of your life. Please take our collective, prayer, energy and love and may it keep you safe within the metaphorical wings of all we feel about you. God Bless you.ReplyCancel

  • ShortscrapperOctober 31, 2011 - 7:57 pm

    I greatly admire your courage and strength as you continue your journey. I recognize the nature of a “walk first, then run” voyage through the pain known as grief. Know that you are loved and cared for by those you’ve never seen, but recognize you as a child of the King. You are not alone . . .ReplyCancel

  • shelly sOctober 31, 2011 - 8:03 pm

    I absolutely believe these were “meant” to be wings all along….you just had to cut away some of the outer parts to get there. ;)
    I truly admire your work and now, more importantly, I admire you. You have stayed with it and kept trying to go on even in the face of such ugly adversity. It’s not always easy, Lord knows but God never promised us easy. The “C” word has hit our family hard as well so I know what you are going thru to some extent. I have had a maternal grandmother, my mother, my sister, an uncle, and my brother-in-law all hit with it. Unfortunately my grandmother and my brother-in-law never made it thru. Fortunately I still have the others, so I am blessed by this. Try and hang in there and know whether we say it or not we ARE standing by you. I will say an extra prayer for you and your strength. Thanks so much for sharing things with us (even the not so great things of your life). It makes my day brighter when I see your art work in front of me! ;) God Bless You.

  • Donna DOctober 31, 2011 - 8:05 pm

    Oh Becca, you are such an inspiration to so many folks! I don’t comment very often but I can hardly wait for your posts to appear. It is easy to see your love through your creations. Hang in there girl. Days will eventually get easier and brighter…in the meantime know your followers think of you and are keeping you in our prayers. We love you very much!ReplyCancel

  • BrendaOctober 31, 2011 - 8:11 pm

    {{{{Becca}}}}} I remember the first year after losing my son… the ups and downs.. bless your heart for making it through and praying for peace in the year ahead. And you are right, the love from those who have gone on before us will never die, it’s been 10 years now and my worries that I might forget have never occurred. Our loved ones are still in our hearts, bringing strength when we need it…ReplyCancel

  • Lucy HarperOctober 31, 2011 - 8:27 pm

    Becca, I certainly saw the angel wings as soon as I saw your card. I did
    not need an explanation as to how you arrived at them! I loved the card
    as I do all of yours. Hang in there, we are all behind you. LucyReplyCancel

  • Marilyn NimmoOctober 31, 2011 - 8:32 pm

    Yes, they are angel wings. LOVE this very elegant card. So glad you feel that you are doing better. I’m glad you are allowing yourself to grieve and that you have a very good friend. Hang in there and keep creating beautiful cards–we know that creating is such great therapy.ReplyCancel

  • janeyOctober 31, 2011 - 8:34 pm

    Becca, you certainly must feel the embrace of all of our arms around you. We may not ask you often enough how you are doing, however, many of us are well aware of the many milestones you have encountered. I just reviewed some of my favorite cards from you and found the post that you sent us with the valentine that John made for you while you were out of the house. I smiled. I am grateful you shared that with us.

    From personal experience with my sister-in-law, the step by step process, slowly allowing yourself to experience whatever you are feeling, is a part of the healing.

    This card is stunning. I love the angel wings and how fantastic that you had your eyes open wide to see those wings.


  • JoanieOctober 31, 2011 - 8:36 pm

    Dear Becca,
    I have often wished that I could meet you in person because there are so many similarities in our lives. I know it took much courage for you to share so much of your heart with us today. The old adage time heals all I don’t believe in. Each of us grieves in different ways. There is no timeline to tell us how short or long we should grieve. God. made us all different and that’s a true blessing. You are a true gift from God that has been blessed in so many ways. Your John is Always smiling down on you Becca and giving you some of his strength . My thoughts and prayers are with you today and always .
    Thank You for always giving so much to all of us crafters as well.ReplyCancel

  • BrendaOctober 31, 2011 - 8:42 pm

    Becca, My heart goes out to you. I echo all the comments shared here. I can’t imagine what you have gone through, not only in the past year but in the months before you lost your beloved John. May God be with you and comfort you as your life continues on.
    I found you last year, probably a few months before you lost John. I had no idea what was happening in your personal life. I was so impressed and immersed in your talent and creativity, I wasn’t paying close attention to the personal part of your life. From your Blog, I know that you are a caring, sharing, talented woman with so much to give to others. Our way of giving back is to let you know often…how very much we appreciate your talent and you! God Bless You!ReplyCancel

  • kateOctober 31, 2011 - 8:57 pm

    It’s hard to believe it’s been a year since John passed away. I don’t always get to read your blog but every time I see your name in my Google reader I say a little prayer for you.
    The card is gorgeous and the doily wings are inspired.ReplyCancel

  • Carol FroehlichOctober 31, 2011 - 9:02 pm

    Thank you Becca for sharing your struggles and your true inner feelings. I understand how you can still be grieving. I still cry often for the loss of my father whom I took care of for 11 years. I lost him two months after you lost John. You are so right……love never dies and loving memories tear at the heart. There is an emptiness there that can only be filled by that person. Grief is a solitary emotion and no one else on earth can feel what you feel. God is a comfort but there is still the longing for that person to be with us physically and emotionally. Time helps and heals but it can never steal the love that exists between you.

    Thinking of you with heartfelt feelings and you will be included in my prayers. May God’s loving arms wrap you with Peace and Love.

    PS…..Those ARE wings…. the wings of your guardian angel. :)ReplyCancel

  • Michel EOctober 31, 2011 - 9:11 pm

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts about this milestone in your life. Keep leaning on God and he will get you through. Your card is gorgeous.

    craftymom205 at yahoo dot comReplyCancel

  • AnitaOctober 31, 2011 - 9:11 pm

    I check your blog often and am so inspired by your talent but have never before taken the time to leave a comment. After reading your blog today, though, I want you to know how much you mean to me. Your cards are absolutely beautiful but you are even more so. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. I will probably never meet you in this life but would love to hang out with you sometime in heaven. I will pray for you!ReplyCancel

  • Phyllis McKennaOctober 31, 2011 - 9:25 pm

    Thanks Becca for sharing with us today. I don’t usually comment but I am always inspired by your cards. The first thing I saw when I clicked on today’s post was angel wings and they look beautiful on your card. Keep on sharing your amazing talent with us as that surely must be part of God’s plan for you; to inspire others. God bless.ReplyCancel

  • Phyllis B.October 31, 2011 - 9:45 pm

    Thank you for sharing. Sending hugs and prayers.ReplyCancel

  • RufusOctober 31, 2011 - 9:51 pm

    Becca, you’ve already got a ton of comments on this post and need another like a hole in the head…but I’ve got to write it. First of all. the first thought I had when the picture came up (tiny) in my reader was…that looks like wings…Still did when I came over to the blog and got the larger picture…Actually it’s a gorgeous card. I really like it a lot. I often leave you a comment, but not always. I do however, come check out EVERY thing you post. Yes we’ve all noticed that you haven’t been posting as often…but you need to do what you need to do. There is NO time table for grieving or grief, I’m sure that you will always miss John. I know that time will dull the pain and help to fill in the void. You do things when and how you need to do them. All of us out here love your giving spirit and your endless creativity, we’ll be here when you are. I have thought of you often, esp when you haven’t posted for awhile,(and every time I tie a bow!) but I also know what your in-box must look like, plus there are times that a girl just needs some space. Know that you are thought of and admired, not only for your creativity and generosity of spirit, but also your strength.
    Keeping you in my heart,

  • Patsy EcclesOctober 31, 2011 - 10:25 pm

    Dear Becca, I go through spells of looking at my craft e-mails and then not viewing them for a period of time due to work cycles. So I missed knowing what you have been experiencing this last year. I am glad you have felt the love and support from this list and your friends. The love that is in your cards and projects has inspired and comforted so many of us with each new posting you do. I will tell you that my experience with the loss of a close family member had me not starting to heal until after the first year. I hope this will mean for you an increasing number of better days where the sweetness of your memories stand in for the sadness of your physical loss more and more. I promise you that the balance of these feelings does get more even as the years advance. My you feel the hug of your husband and us virtual friends today. I have just sent you mine. PatsyReplyCancel

  • RochelleOctober 31, 2011 - 10:42 pm

    Nehemiah 8:10 is my verse of the year. I am only new to your blog but have spent the last few days getting to know you. I thought I would share my verse with you and say thank you for sharing your wonderful gift and even your sad story with me. “The joy of the Lord is your strength”. xoxReplyCancel

  • Desiree YoungOctober 31, 2011 - 11:02 pm

    No matter how much time passes…..the ache in your heart lightens, but never leaves….this much I know. :) May God bless you and keep you in his arms. And know that you are in all of our hearts as well.


  • Billie AOctober 31, 2011 - 11:14 pm

    Hello sweet Becca, I just want to cry with you. I feel for you, I know having lost my mother and father it does not get easier. Holidays and birthdays all family gatherings are different as my mother was the glue to the family. And my father was so strong and wonderful. I miss them daily as I am sure you do John. At least no one can take our wonderul memories away.
    I hope you are taking care of yourself. Bless you and keep you strong. I visit daily but dont often leave messages. Take care, hugs and God Bless you..ReplyCancel

  • VeldaNovember 1, 2011 - 12:04 am

    Just know that I think of you each and every time I read one of your posts, and knew that it was time for the one year mark. My thoughts and prayers are meant to hold you up with one more hand added to all the wonderful people who visit your site daily as do I with their arms outstretched to support you.ReplyCancel

  • SusanNovember 1, 2011 - 12:14 am

    Dearest Becca,
    I am in awe of you constantly sharing the gift of your words and beautiful creations. To be doing this when you are grieving is even more astounding. I wish you much love, time to grieve, happy memories and years filled with joy and love.
    Thank you for sharing this lovely card. I thought of angel wings as soon as I saw it. They are still with us you know. Your John must be smiling down upon you and be so proud of you.
    Keep walking through the molasses. You will be even sweeter when you come out the other side.
    Wishing you God’s continued blessings and love.

  • Patty W.November 1, 2011 - 12:24 am

    Dear sweet Becca, I am so sorry you are having to go through such a hard time. You are so generous, sharing with us, and letting us know how you cope day by day. You inspire and encourage those of us who need consoling too! Thank you for your courage and your faith, and the most beautiful cards on the internet. (Oh yes, I knew right away those were angel wings!) I still include you and your wonderful family in my prayers, as I have since John was sick. Sending you love and hugs and blessings! Patty W.ReplyCancel

  • Neesey GebalskiNovember 1, 2011 - 1:06 am

    I hardly ever leave a message. I don’t have a blog. I come to you for inspiration. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom to breast cancer, and a few of my close friends have had it too. It is never easy, knowing what to say. Just know that the silences from others carry their thoughts and prayers for you in their hearts.ReplyCancel

  • Teresa GrayNovember 1, 2011 - 1:55 am

    I love your card I seen the wings right away. May Gods comforting arms hold you during these times. He is always there to wipe away our tears. HugsReplyCancel

  • AllyNovember 1, 2011 - 2:52 am

    Although I live in Australia I follow your wonderful Blog every day – I realised that your Anniversary would be about now. I lost my beloved husband earlier last year, and the pain does not get easier – just different. But with your incredible strength and faith, and your dedication to your craft, you will survive these tough times.
    Hugs, and more hugs.ReplyCancel

  • ENovember 1, 2011 - 3:40 am

    God’s love is beyond measure and you can never escape His never-ending love and faithfulness especially at the lowest point in your life because you are His precious child. Becca, although we may not know each other personally, I can truly feel a bond of friendship between us through this lovely blog of yours. May you have a renewed enthusiasm and joy to seek our Lord’s presence day by day, moment by moment. Love you so dearly.ReplyCancel

  • DianneNovember 1, 2011 - 5:04 am

    Thanks for sharing….You wrote that so beautifully….Sending Love and hugs….God BlessReplyCancel

  • FrancineNovember 1, 2011 - 5:14 am

    I cannot express myself as well like the others but I can feel how much they love you. It is a massive injection of affection and sympathy . I hope those
    words will wrap you like those beautiffull wings . Now you feel like a candle in the wind but through all this procesus of lost one day it will be less painful . We will be there for you as long it will take.
    Thanks so much to all those cyber blogger your words help me to.

  • Jody HammondNovember 1, 2011 - 5:36 am

    God Bless you Becca. We are thinking of you and praying for you. If there is one thing I have learned in my life, it is to keep busy and stay focused on what is at hand, the rest will fall in to place. That’s what helped me get through my cancer. Stay strong girl, every day will get a little bit easier!

  • EllenaElizabethNovember 1, 2011 - 5:49 am

    Thankyou for sharing your personal thoughts and feelings. You are a blessing each day I see a new post from you and even in between when I wonder what your next creation will be. GOD BLESS you always.ReplyCancel

  • Phyllis HoltermannNovember 1, 2011 - 6:18 am

    Beca, I also do not comment all the time but, I am here every day. I am very thankful for your card making……not just for my enjoyment in your work but, for you to have to keep you focused on moving ahead. It’s so hard in the beginning, each step is monumental to say the least. All of us just wish we could gather in a circle around you and fill you up with love and peace and remove the sadness in your heart. In spirit we are all there Becca………showering you with love and prayers. You have given so much of yourself to us on a daily basis that we ALL want to give you a big warm hug! Remember Becca, your support circle surrounds the entire earth…….and we all love you!ReplyCancel

  • Kelly SchirmerNovember 1, 2011 - 6:34 am

    You are an inspiration to us all, Becca! Your strength, and creativity… and your humor, too! You certainly chose the perfect name for your blog way back when! I think your love for your husband and children shows through in ever post, every creation. You are such a brave and strong woman, and have taught us all so much about grace this past year. Thinking of you, and so glad to hear that the fog is lifting!ReplyCancel

  • Peggy BiggsNovember 1, 2011 - 6:41 am

    I too saw your Angel wings soon as I looked at your card. I feel your pain as well from losing my parents and just recently my brother’s daughter was killed. It is never easy to get through the grieving and they will always be loved and missed dearly. I don’t always get to comment, but I do love coming to your blog and always leave feeling good! I tell everyone about your blog and how beautiful your cards are. It always amazes me in your work. I know you will be blessed and your readers are always here to support you too. Sending big hugs to you sweetie. I know this isn’t an easy time for you. You are always an inspiration. Even when you may need the uplifting from your readers, we leave visiting taking inspiration from you instead! Love you.

  • ElaineNovember 1, 2011 - 8:12 am

    You bring so much joy to everyone, Becca. Yours is one of the first websites I check every morning and it always makes me smile. Our hearts go out to you at the loss of your beloved husband John. No mere words can ease your pain except to say ‘We’re so sorry!’ In the words of the late Robert Frost….”I can sum up life in three words. It goes on. . .”

    This much I know!. . . .ReplyCancel

  • Karen WeddingNovember 1, 2011 - 8:49 am

    Way to go Becca! Keep the faith and all will come around in due time. If He brings you to it, He will bring you through it! I lost my dad about 31/2 years ago and my mom still has moments. Cherish your memories, for they are what get you through. I love your creations. You inspire me so much!ReplyCancel

  • Omega BrooksNovember 1, 2011 - 10:30 am

    You are a blessing and an inspiration to everyone that stops by to view and read your beautiful work. Yes, these are angel wings and another example of his “Amazing Grace”. The Lord is with you and will continue to keep you and yours in his capable hands.ReplyCancel

  • LizetteNovember 1, 2011 - 10:51 am

    Becca, you are an inspiration to us all. You are always in my prayers.
    Hugs from United Arab Emirates.ReplyCancel

  • Debbie G.November 1, 2011 - 11:19 am

    Becca, I didn’t realize you had lost your husband last year. It is a long, slow healing process and you’re doing what you need to do, don’t be embarrassed by the emotional moments, don’t feel embarrassed by talking about John whenever you want (it often puts others at ease as well), and be good to you. I lost my first husband when I was 39 years old, totally unexpected from a massive heart attack. It took me 6 years to find myself on the other end of the tunnel and it was worth the wait. I lost a couple of years from allowing others to insist I keep busy a couple months after my husband died and it was the worst thing I did because it didn’t allow me to heal at my own pace. I didn’t have fine art rubber stamping and paper crafts to help me along at the time. I did learn about the value of the strong support from family and friends, and appreciating them more. It is one day at a time, understanding there is a reason for everything that happens in our life, accepting the many blessings we receive each and every day, and learning new ways to share those blessings. Hugs!ReplyCancel

  • ArleenNovember 1, 2011 - 11:21 am

    I just read your very personal note today and am moved to remind you of Psalm 46….”Be still and know that I am God”. Having lost my husband when my children were very young, I found comfort and felt His loving arms on my shoulder. I visit your site daily and am always amazed at the beauty you consistently share with us . You truly radiate God’s love and I can only offer my prayer for your hurting heart that you continue to feel His loving arms around you. I love how you describe yourself first as a Child of God and then list your other important roles. You touch many hearts. Thank you for opening your heart to us so that we can reach out to you.ReplyCancel

  • Mary RobersonNovember 1, 2011 - 11:28 am

    Becca, words can not describe how lovely this card and sentiment are.
    I also appreciate your post. I can not begin to imagine what you are
    going through and what you have already been through. I’m glad to hear
    you have so many wonderful friends and family surrounding you with their
    love and support. I check in with your blog every 2 or 3 days, so I’m just
    now seeing this. My thoughts are with you, and my prayers:)ReplyCancel

  • LenoriaNovember 1, 2011 - 11:53 am

    The doily looks like angel’s wings to me! Thank you for sharing such an honest update with us. I don’t text every day but I do read your blog and wonder how you are and I wish you continued healing and comfort!ReplyCancel

  • Bridget LarsenNovember 1, 2011 - 1:40 pm

    Wow that year has gone so fast, I don’t think I have ever commented on your blog but boy do I hang out for the email notifications and sometimes I dont even wait for that and open up your blog just to see if the notifications broke down. Your cards are so inspirational, so clever, so neat and each day I try and look inside of it and see how, why, where and today I saw something other than wings on that doily, I saw a pair of breasts~strange huh~how fitting, as its breast cancer month, at least here in Australia.
    I just want you to know your blog and you are well loved. If you stopped creating and posting I don’t know what I’d do. I have notifications to a lot of blog’s but yours is the one I hang out for everyday.
    So if you think we hold you up~ well let me tell you how many time you have picked me up, I even have your cards on a digital picture frame scrolling through just for me to look at and be inspired and digitally hugged.
    Hugs and love from Australia
    Bridget LarsenReplyCancel

  • SandiNovember 1, 2011 - 1:48 pm

    Hi Becca ~ I just finished reading your last post today. What you are doing with your life is truly an ‘example’ for all to witness. You have learned how to heal through your art, it’s a strange but wonderful journey you are on. I commend you for your steadfastness during your difficult times, and I know there were many. I lost my daughter [3 years this week] and like you, created like crazy to try and escape the fog I felt I’d never come out of. Know that you are where you’re supposed to be and that God does have a plan for you, as He does for all of us. I know that I speak for everyone when I say you have been an inspiration to us with your beautiful art, I love it so. Thank you for sharing with us, we all care about you and love you Becca. BIG hugs, SandiReplyCancel

  • Laura with Layers of ColorNovember 1, 2011 - 2:11 pm

    You are an encouraging sister to many through your blogging, especially when you share your broken heart. I’m often lifting you up to God for peace and healing, Becca. Time will heal, and the memories will remain sweet, until you are reunited in Heaven.

    Draw close to God, His love heals…this much I know.ReplyCancel

  • RebeccaNovember 1, 2011 - 4:28 pm

    I hope your good memories help you through this difficult time. Best wishesReplyCancel

  • AnneNovember 1, 2011 - 5:32 pm

    More and more I see ‘Godincidences’ – and I believe your angel wings were just another of those. An amazing paper reminder through the month of October especially for you.
    The verse from Psalms is perfect for this wonderful ethereal creation, Becca :o)
    You have been very much in my thoughts and prayers.
    God bless you.
    Anne (UK) xReplyCancel

  • FMNovember 1, 2011 - 5:48 pm

    I love the angel wings…just beautiful!! I am thinking of you and know how hard the past year has been. I lost my 32 year old son in March. When you loose a loved one a gaping hole in you heart remains. The pain becomes different but it never goes away. Thanks you for sharing both your feelings and your creativity. You are in my thoughts and prayers as you continue on your journey.ReplyCancel

  • PJNovember 1, 2011 - 6:02 pm

    I like so many others make your blog a daily stop, with anticipation of wonderful sights as well as wonderful words. I admit that I do not always leave a comment, but there has never been a post that has not touched me in a positive way, either with a thoughtful message or a humourous moment you have chosen to share along with your lovely creations. You definitely have an artistic gift from God and it is such a blessing for all of us that you have chosen to really share that gift as well as your inspirational words through both good times as well as bad. As I sat down with my scrambled eggs and toast supper tonight after a long day at work, and started reading your post the tears flowed; as I am sure they did from many of your readers. I came across your blog early this year, following the passing of my Dad. I so understand your description of your grieving process, for while my grief may be somewhat different, your words so match my Mother’s words and feelings. Thank-you for sharing so beautifully what is in your heart. May God continue to bless you and your family, and you are so right… Love does not die. …”By the way ” (which are the words my Dad, would always close with in his letters to me followed by “I love you”) I saw Angel wings instantly. :-)ReplyCancel

  • JeanneNovember 1, 2011 - 6:46 pm

    Hi Becca, thank you for sharing a very personal part of your life, you said it all so beautifully. I know many of us pray for you, we know it must be so hard for you, but we pray you will find peace. You bring so much joy to everyone with your wonderful creations. I do think your wings look like wings, they are beautiful! Thank you for all you do to lift our spirits. :)ReplyCancel

  • SandraNovember 1, 2011 - 7:29 pm

    Your blog is an everyday stop for me. I know this last year has been very hard for you but I hope you know how much pleasure and support you bring your followers. You have an amazing talent and your being willing to share with us bring a lot of joy and hope to us less talented crafter’s. Thank You for all your wonderful ideas and sharing them.

    Look forward to sharing a part of everyday with you.
    Love you, SandraReplyCancel

  • Mary RaeNovember 1, 2011 - 7:56 pm

    Hugs to you, thinking of you.ReplyCancel

  • KimNovember 1, 2011 - 8:30 pm

    Becca, As always, your card is beautiful. Look like angel wings to me.Thank you ever so much for sharing your wonderful talent and your life with us. You are such an inspiration to me and I appreciate all the wonderful items you share. God bless you.ReplyCancel

  • GeorgetteNovember 1, 2011 - 8:47 pm

    You card look like a angel and it is so so beautiful
    and thank for sharing your life with us
    I am still so new at your blog but I like every thing that you show
    and very gald to see what you do every day
    my prayers are with you God bless you
    Now have a very good week
    and now you need a very big HUGS from meReplyCancel

  • TrishaNovember 2, 2011 - 12:44 am

    Dear Becca
    You are so brave, so strong, so talented, so giving.
    Kelly V is lucky to have you as her best friend, the same as
    we are lucky to be able to sneak a peak at your life everyday.
    To share in your joys and weep in your sorrows, to celebrate,
    to rejoice with you.
    For me and countless others, every day is a Becca day. You
    inspire us to be better card makers and better people.
    Fill your heart with love and peace will find you.
    This much I know……
    Hugs & Smiles, Wishes & Dreams

  • Ginny IngramNovember 2, 2011 - 1:36 am

    Becca, thank you for being honest and sharing from your heart. It will help me pray better for you. You are a special lady. God bless you.ReplyCancel

  • GaleNovember 2, 2011 - 2:00 am

    You are an inspiration to all of us. I pray that God will hold you in His hands during this difficult time. Thank you for sharing with us your heart and for sharing your talent.ReplyCancel

  • Sandra KNovember 2, 2011 - 4:59 am

    It’s a beautiful, angelic card (most definitely they are wings).
    My love to you as you mark this milestone and continue to grieve. Thank you for sharing some thing of your heart and I hope you will take comfort in these well wishes. Hugs.ReplyCancel

  • Sandy from Crafty SecretsNovember 2, 2011 - 5:16 am

    I happened to drop by your blog saw the wings and cried a bucket of tears after reading your post because you conveyed your loss and pain so clearly it seared my heart and I wanted to send you a GIANT HUG. Then I started reading the comments and I just couldn’t stop, so now 257 comments later it’s after 2:30 am! I’m off to bed but I had to write and tell you how much love and encouragement I felt pour out from these women and how much you inspire them in so many ways. Know this – you are truly loved and appreciated for all the beauty and creativity you inspire in others, but also the beauty of your soul shines through like amazing light! Thanks and bless youReplyCancel

  • Lisa JacksonNovember 2, 2011 - 7:25 am

    You lift us up, sweet girl!

  • Lorel-LyeNovember 2, 2011 - 9:01 am

    Your crafty lil’ Diva you! All your work is beautiful!ReplyCancel

  • MarlaNovember 2, 2011 - 10:37 am

    you are an amazing woman of God – and God will keep providing for you with whatever you need whenever you need it.ReplyCancel

  • becky flenerNovember 2, 2011 - 11:28 am

    just wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my prays!ReplyCancel

  • RobynNovember 2, 2011 - 12:43 pm

    What a message, I have thought of you often this past year and prayed for you and your family. I don’t need to give you this advice because I know you already do it. Keep looking up and God will see you through.

  • Gloria StengelNovember 2, 2011 - 6:13 pm

    You are in my prayers, dear one! Your comment about the world moving on quickly hit home with me. It’s been 15 months since my brother was killed, and in some ways it’s just as bad as the day I got the phone call. Other days, I’m dealing with it. But others have moved on and it’s just old news to them. The Lord holds me up in these times. He is holding you in His hands, too. I sned you much love and many prayers! You are an amazing woman and a rock in tough times. You are an inspiration to so many.ReplyCancel

  • KellyGNovember 2, 2011 - 6:31 pm

    Becca- I know that i’m a couple days late, but I too woke up that morning thinking of you and your loss. Know that you have soooo many “friends” out there that are here for you always and will stand by you. You’re in my thoughts and prayers and I’m happy to hear that you’re on the mend. Big hugs for you.ReplyCancel

  • Cindy MNovember 2, 2011 - 7:02 pm

    Becca, your creations and words are an inspiration to me daily. Love can be a very powerful influence in our lives. When a love is lost or seems to have disappeared, it leaves a huge hole in our heart while we morn. But as time goes on, the love will always be with us as treasured memories. I feel your pain and loneliness. I went through a divorce after a 20 year marriage. I was told by a therapist it would take 1 year for every 4 years of marriage, to heal from the loss. This advise held true. With God’s guidance over 4 1/2 years, I was slowly able to start my life over as a single woman, with a new identity. It continues to be a struggle now and then, but my family & friends are always near by to cheer me on. May these next few years bring you new experiences and welcomed changes, as God guides you down new roads.ReplyCancel

  • DonnaNovember 2, 2011 - 8:15 pm

    God bless, Yours wings are gorgeous, loss is never easy to bear, I always say prayers for you, I hope things continue to go up hill, there will always be slips backwards, but when those times come, I just think of the happier times, it does not always work, but between God and friends and family hopefully some how we manage. I love coming to your blog, you always manage to brighten my day, you are just an awesome individual and seem to have such an inner strength. Lots of hugs and prayers to you and yours.

  • LindaNovember 2, 2011 - 10:00 pm

    Becca-I know some of what you’re going thru as I, too, lost a husband. It has been almost 19 years and there isn’t a day I don’t think of him even tho’ I remarried 3 years later. I love your site and your work is truly the best I’ve seen. I’m not savvy enough to post my cards or blog but I certainly love checking you out every day. Please know that I care and hope the days ahead will continue to brighten for you. You are loved by so many!!ReplyCancel

  • Nancy BNovember 3, 2011 - 6:25 am

    Hello my friend,
    It’s hard to believe that a year has pasted. My heart swells with joy knowing how precious you and John’s love for each other is. The care that you gave to one another was unselfish. And though John is not with you physically he is preparing and tending to things in preparation for the day he and his beautiful bride will be reunited!!! There will be a glorious celebration in Heaven on that day.
    It’s true God has a plan and a purpose for you here. The beauty of your artwork that often shares His Word with so many is a great part of that purpose. May the scriptures that you stamp be forever buried in your heart and your life so that when times seem difficult you can dwell on His Word and find the strength that He intended for you as you journey along.
    Know that your arms are being held up when you feel weak by those that love you. Spend time every day giving thanks for all that God has blessed you with. Sending hugs to you until I can personally deliver one to you!ReplyCancel

  • Paula GaleNovember 3, 2011 - 9:11 am

    Hi Becca

    I have been a follower of yours for nearly 2 years now and was reading posts all those months ago when you lost your darling John and your dear friend stepped in to keep us well informed. I had followed you since finding your blog and followed you until about March this year when I had a real bout of feeling so low and unwell, I couldn’t keep up with the blogging, hopping, reading my emails, or reading email subscriptions. Instead, I moved all those emails I would have normally ready (and I commented every time on yours) into a large folder that I named ‘must read later’. Just this week, I thought I would start to look at wading through some of the stuff I’d saved and needed (wanted) to read – I have over 450 unread emails in my inbox alone at this moment in time – as I have never managed to catch up – and that doesn’t include what I’d already moved to the other folder.

    I can’t beleive its a year ago since your darling John passed, but find it extraordinary that this should be the first post I find myself reading properly – straight out of the blue since starting to catch up – i’ve not started at the beginning (back in March), nor do I read then file to read later… I don’t know what made me read this one randomly. Maybe there is nothing so strange in that for some people – but since you speak from the heart and wear it on your sleeve, i’ve felt a connection with that part of your blog posts – not so much the talent because if I had anything like the talent you have, my blogging and crafting might not have suffered so much.

    You are a true inspiration to others, not only through your talent, but because of the way you have dealt with your sadness and loss with dignity while continuing to share what you do with others. This is how you have touched others who have maybe gone through similar issues and situations in life – whether at a similar time to you, in the past – or perhaps more recently. You have a rare quality indeed where you soldier on through your card making and stamping and the wonderful things you make.

    I realise that dealing with the loss of loved one is always going to be one of the worse things we have to deal with in our own lifetime, but how we let it affect each every aspect of our lives thereafter is quite another thing.

    Your dignity is truly a strength – whether that be the case in private or not is only your business and when you say you cry and are not afraid to tell it – well good on you.

    Thank you for being a genuine person and a talented blogger.

    Paula Gale, (Derbyshire,UK) xxxReplyCancel

  • ShellaNovember 3, 2011 - 1:04 pm

    (((( Becca ))))
    I wish I was there to give you a hug in person. Cancer has ripped my family appart nnd your words really hit home. If God brings you to it, he will bring you through it. Take care.ReplyCancel

  • Sharon DNovember 3, 2011 - 9:03 pm

    When I scrolled down to this post the angel wings drew me in right away with a soft breath. Your message will hit every family, every home, and are so sadly very true. We all are very good at hiding what the world does not want to see.
    Your art has uplifted us, taught us, inspired us in our crafting endeavers. The world is a richer place for you being in our lives, as you are a richer person for John being in your life. The saving grace is he is waiting for you when God is ready to bring you home.
    Much love
    Sharon DoolittleReplyCancel

  • AliceNovember 3, 2011 - 11:08 pm

    I follow every post on your blog. I lust at the beauty of your cards. I soak up the love you send us every day. I am so thankful that you shared another bit of your soul. You are a brave and talented woman and it’s good to know that you are beginning to slow down and feel the wind at your back. I may not comment on your blog, but I do send you a whisper of a prayer each day.ReplyCancel

  • RitaNovember 4, 2011 - 6:44 am

    Becca, I just found you through Our Daily Bread and have been “wowed” by your creation. My heart goes out to you. I will hold you up in prayer daily. May God keep His Hand on you and heal you.ReplyCancel

  • Lynda HillNovember 4, 2011 - 12:28 pm

    God Bless You, Becca! Those are definitely angel wings….just like the one has who is watching over you! Blessings….ReplyCancel

  • CarinNovember 4, 2011 - 1:00 pm

    Becca, The card is gorgeous, as usually… I definitely see the wings… luv it!

    We all heal in different ways and at different speeds… God is your great Healer and He will restore you to wholeness… this I am sure of!

    Praying for you!ReplyCancel

  • Denise SNovember 5, 2011 - 7:30 pm

    To the creatively talented Becca,

    thinking of you…ReplyCancel

  • BettyNovember 10, 2011 - 12:49 am

    Hugs to you dear, sweet Becca. Your card is truly gorgeous. I wish there was something I could do to help ease your pain.ReplyCancel

  • BarbaraNovember 10, 2011 - 7:50 am

    I’m a brand-new reader; I just found you yesterday. You inspired me with your crafting, but today you touched my heart and brought tears to my eyes. Bless your beautiful spirit. May you find peace through your works as I have found it in mine.ReplyCancel

  • Just meNovember 10, 2011 - 2:30 pm

    Becca I’m another that doesn’t leave comments very often. That doesn’t mean that I don’t try to keep up with your blog. Believe me there are lots of us that understand when you say people just go on with their lives and leave us behind….. Thinking of you gal!ReplyCancel

  • JulieNovember 13, 2011 - 6:59 pm

    I lost my husband 27 years ago. The minister of my church told me about two women in one of his other churches. Both lost their Hubbys. The first lady got out and did lots of things while the second stayed at home and got her grieving over with. The first lady is in a mental inst. and second lady is doing fine. I took the second ladys choice and I have made it just fine. After about 2 years things seemed to fall in place. I know how you feel and I have lots of prayers for you. God Bless youReplyCancel